Last Monday after Easter Sunday I vaporized some bud from a reliable source and ever since I have been feeling weird.

That Sunday night / Monday morning I smoked around 3-4am and felt good but as soon as 5-6am hit I got a really bad panic attack. I got claustrophobic where I couldn't be in a tight room or even the shower without the door being opened.

Its been a week of hell that I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. Filled with fear/depression/anxiety/panic throughout my day which sucks because finals are coming up and I need to be up to par to finish strong. 

 

Ive been to the ER 3 times since that Monday and everything always checks out. I went to my primary doctor 2 days ago and he prescribed me 10mg pexavar or something like that, it's a SSRI. I've been so scared to take it thinking I wouldn't be myself but I still took half of the tablet today. I still feel in a dreamy state but I still have all of my memory and can still remember everything.

 

its just been so scary with thoughts racing like "am I always going to be like this?" "Did I truly screw myself up?" Me being spiritual don't agree with that but it's hard not to think that way when I wake up my heart races and the feeling of panic comes. I'm 25 and I have been telling my parents if they can lie in the same room with me because it makes me feel better.

 

ive never had a problem with depression or anxiety and have never had to take pills for anything. I know God wants me well and he doesn't want this for me. I'm just worried and trying to seek help from people for hope. 

 

 

Thank you you for all of the responses and God bless you all!