I am in a mess. anxiety or not?

...Just got the hoover out o.O o.O :-D and thinking :-| :-| ........I stand at the kerb, with my children on either side of me, waiting for the wee green man.......the road is quiet, and others are calmly crossing the road.....It takes ages for the wee green man to appear, in fact most the population has managed to cross the road, before the we green man appear. he shows face, and me and the girls go YEAS :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D :-D Then an edgit in a very fast , very fast moving sports car goes zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzooooooooooom! All three of us are squished!!!!Ok, I know its not funny, but its my life!!!!!!

Yesterday, I got in such a panic o.O My left rib cage started to throb, like nothing Ive felt, it was throbbing and then Id take a deep beath in and it hurt really bad. Then everytime I leant on my left hand , it hurts, yet today been upritght and moving about and ok, still felll it, but nothing like last night. I thought U was going to have to go to hosptial, but just went to bed and put it down to my anxious state.

I guess my solicitor was only acting in my best interests, but its not really him im upset with its the justice system.

Daftydil, First of all Im feel very sorry about what are you going through. I can be open with you too because in here you are all my family. Really I would like to meet you personally but i don t know how , besides this forum doesnt let you send mails to anybody:((xxx

Daftydil Im male going into 30 this month. I had issues of obsessive compulsive disorder about my health about 2 years ago. I had seperated from my wife after we got married she told me that she doesnt want kids because shes afraid of pregnancy and once when she was 13 years old she was sexually abused by a friend. So our sexual bond between us was very poor , everytime I tried to go onto her she pushed me away and tell me that '' You Guys always want sex to abuse us, to use us'' . I was very hit with those words. After all she was my wife:((xx I didnt want to abuse her but to love her:((xx..

Anyway we have got the seperation now here in Malta, because in Malta the divorce is illegal. Im trying to work it out with my lawyer to get ( I dont know what is it in English) that I can marry again with the permit from the catholic church. MY WIFE BETRAYED ME!! daftydil:((xx

And now im suffering all this sh*t onto me . I wasnt happy with her anyway but I did respect her . After 2 years of marriage I was feeling that with her it is going to finish and I was feeling that I had become a friend to her and not her husband anymore!!!

I just told you some of my background history .....:-(((xxx Im a very sensitive person but sometimes I feel that I have changed . When Im depressed its sucks a lot and I know how you feel out there:((xxx But keep hanging on dont make your patner feel happy but try to show him that you are a strong woman . Be strong infront of me and dont be afraid of him...Dont drink alcahol if you are om pills dear because it is very dangerous . I cut the alcahol . I used to do the same thing before but I felt more depressed afterwards!!!


If you need something or to talk with I always check this forum because I found it quite well informative and here we are like a big family . Big supporters one helping each other. I would honestly from the bottom of my heart try to help you because you seem to be such a very nice person with a big heart !!!

Be proud of yourself Daftydil and stand up for your rights do not ever fall for stupid sh**s!!!!

God Bless you and youll be in my prayers, because I know how you feel .

Take care From Malta
Yours sincerly

Gilbert

Hi Dafty! ;-) How are things going today?

Hi bambi, today, I all over the place. All over the place. Im ok, managing and doing fine one minute and then the next , dizzie sore and feel like I may colapse.

My sister has asked me to stay with her for a few days, and I give my kids to granny while I am away, but I am really scared at what he might do while we are away, and all my family will be all over the place and I dont know what I want to do. My ribs are still hurting, Every bump on the bus felt very raw, but I reckon they cant be broken Id be lying down.

Couldnt carry the shopping, my sister had to so it for me. Children, they are good, quite happy , cheeky aselves. Im a a stage where I want to cry, but cant cry...Usually Im the other way around...let me cry , try and stop me....strange!

Finding it hard to be normal.....Sister comented that Id look like that I just dont care, black eye, white face, stooped over, with 2 kids, which whoops reminds me I better go check their dinner. Thanks for asking how I was. How are you?

You know what hon? You need a huge tub of Calgon!!!!!! ;-) PLEASE go to the doctor, they can wrap your ribs and check you eye. I REALLY think that your diziness is definitely connected to something other than panic!!! Wouldn't you love to find out that it is physical and not mental and you can get relief and fixed?! You know where I stand with the other, BUT this I REALLY REALLY think it's something with your balance and perhaps brain damage of some sort = like bruising! I know your sister needs you, but so do you!!!! So just get a check up - FOR ME PPPPPPLEASE?!!! And THEN you can help others, think of a plane dropping in pressure they say to put on the oxygen mask yourself, BEFORE others. So put on the dam oxygen mask woman!!!!!!!

OmG Bambi/Dawn-Im a bit FRRRRREAKED !!!!!!! :$ :$ :$ Okay, last night eneded up arguing with my poor ister >:( Erm////she wants me to leave the children with my mum, and go to hers for a while i Wick. I couldnt helpit. I started to complain that that means i get mum blackmailing me all summer, she gets her way, whereas she could get someone else who is not in the middle of ww3 to help her, and whhenever I am in a mess, tries to help, but its not really helping me as I need to go get things organised, and I dont want to leave mr sneaky up to snealy things, so insecure about leaving this place.

To top all that, got to work felt a bit sick so I asked if I could give someone else my shift, they said it was ok, but I am now worried about loosing my job.

Then, on the way home a neighbour who is about my dads aged asked me out for a liquid lucnch (FFFFFFREEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAKED!!) He talks to me all the time and I never thought for one minute that that was what he was doing. my sister had warned me that he was flurting and that I should not be so nice to him, but I didnt think that was what he was up to, I thought he was just being friendly. Ishe just being friendly?

My ribs are a bit better today, and eye is getting there, still get dizzy, whenever I have to do anything important , I get dizzie, spin spin spin,,,argh!!!

Ive the doctors on Monday, so Ill ask , If I am still sore then. Hopefully it will have gone!!

Right, going to Cab now , find out everything, Hope to speak soon, Take care.

Half way there, and spin spin spi, felt like I couldnt walk. legs stopped working and thought, I m going to colapse!! Body stopped, working clung onto a past and then started that stupid breathing thing!!! Luckily a really lovely lady walked me home. Ill try again tomorow. Its on turning left and in ig long open spaces that I panic, People walking behind me-I panic!!! traffic, people everywhere-panic.Im panicing about everything now, My life, my job , my childrenss welfare, Im panicing about all of this right now. Pls make it go away , i d though tI was better, Hopefullly its a smalll bip, and maybe im just more tired than I think..Its the whole picture though, as soon as I am on my own , everything zooming and spinning around in my head , including sisters problems , how my girls are -just everything!!!!

Rand the citizen advivce bureau-just as well I didnt make it!!! They cant see me until the 21st of July!!!! That gives me time to find a chum though, and its okay, as the rents been paid o.O o.O So thats something to look forward to.

Just been googling-and wonder whether I have Teitze syndrome? Then googled some grotesque pictuers of the human insides....The insides of humans freak me-they look so disgusting and creepy. Im not having a good day, ok with the girls but really just cut off from the world. Thinking about teaching again! Should I/could i

Awe,Dawn-just filled out my housing application form-I reckon it will gain me lots of points, so will definately send it. My ex partners dads been diddled with a double galzing window job- the dirty scoundrels tried to stitch an 81 yr old man up, ex is really upset and consumed by the whole thing. Spoke last night, and he cant handle anything else.

I can understand it an away, yet at the same time i felt so angry towards him...Like how can he expect support from me after everything 8-| :-S

Definately fluid behind my ears, I can feel it-its not budging, a bit like someone else I could mention! Sides sore and paniced , thought Id peed out blood...Citalopram makes me pee.

And it makes my features swell up, and I bite my teeth together! Though must admit, im much better!

My dizziness has returned with vengance. Had to have both kids on either side of me as I wobbled to the bank!!! Mums saying shes had a similar thing so maybe there is a viral thing going on...but grrr!!!! I am feeling good today ( which is odd) but I am good apart from my handicap!!!Hope your okay-not heard from you? Are you ok?

Hi Katy: I've had a LOT going on, been to the hospital with either my son or my dad ALL week, and just got back from the hospital for myself - Skin cancer!!!!!

Anyways I have started talking to another lady on here that is having similar problems to you as well = inner ear, vertigo, lethargy etc. I found this webiste link take a look at it and see

http://index.boards.com/innerear/

It's amazing how similar several of you are on here. And I have to start wondering that in your case in particular that you do have anxiety but ALSO I truly think you have an inner ear problem too. Take a look at the different ones and try to see if these pertain to you. I take it you DIDN'T go to the doctors again!!!!? Ach a VIe woman!!!!

You know your ex's dad it's bad as what's happened to him, but he hasn't been there for you so b****r him! Let his son deal with it, it's non of your business!

Glad to hear your getting going with the forms, sounds much better for you in the long run. Just wish I could send a cab to pick you up and take you to the bloody doctors. Take pictures of the bruises OK?

talk to you later

Dawn

Gosh!! Youve been diagnosed with skin cancer???Are you ok?

Thats bad news. I hop eyour dad and son get well soon too-not been good for you at all!

Well, me I definatley have somesort of water behind my ear. i looked u that healthboard site you gave me. The problem being is my doctor checked my ears and found nothing wrong! I do think that everytime I start to worry my world spins, I never thought id be like this. not for a second, but hey nevermind. Ive been thinking about moving back to Glasgow, where I spent my student years.I can honestly say, that then was the best time of my life. Seriously , I am thinking about taking my kids and moving there.

here, right now, i haent a clue whats happening! I wish I did , then I would not feel so insecure!

At the moment I go through bouts of thinking about wanting to be hospitalised -bloody annoys me-as I hate hospitals, yet id be safe, and bouts of being really strong-what will I do, there willl be something-one day? To moments of Ive had ENOUGH, i WANT TO DIE!

i DONT KNOW ABOUT YOU, but as a mum I love it, yet find it strenuous, a total emotional roller coaster! My children enjoyed the sun today and I took them and the neighbours children to the park...All 7 children, then after half an hour paniced , thinking , god anything could happen, so brought them home.

My youngest keeps having tantrums and excaliming to him :I hate you daddy" it doesnt help. I have to be good and pamper, be nice and just be safe, so that doesnt help.

Anyway, enough about me, gosh-Im shocked at you finding out about you aving skin cancer, they can cure it easily-cant they? Still, , its horrible for you-do you have to get radiotherapy....If it hels you, my step mum had breast cancer 5 years ago, took it reallly bady, but is over it now, and been given the all clear. You must be scared though, especially when you lost your mum to it. I hope your ok, chin up and thank you, your a wonderful person , just for understanding me

Dawn, take care of you.

Its no biggy actually, it has been going on for years, I just have to have a special surgery now. I was also diagnosed with a rare syndrome today too. You see Katy, this is a brand new specialist and all of a sudden he started asking me questions that NO ONE every asked me and certain things I've gone through "physically" and just like that he told me what it was!!!! I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, I just thought I was cursed!!! So that is what I am saying about you, if you have a specialist look at you - Eye Ear Nose Throat specialist then perhaps he/she could finally put this together for you. Do you know - swear to God about this - but I know of at LEAST 50 people right now with an inner ear thing, not including people on here!! And EVERY doctor says there is nothing in their ear!!!!!! So you have to wonder if it's something they can't see!!! Especially you with your dizinees and lethargy. Granted it COULD be anxiety but I think its more than that.

How long did they say you have to wait for new housing?