OK so I am 19 and my boyfriend is 25. We live together, and its been that way for about 10 (almost 11) months. Everything was going well... (At first).... He was sweet and very complimentive and did everything he could to make me happy... Well kind of... I'd say for the past 5-6 months while we (yes while) we have sex he watches porn... I mean if I'm gonna give him head or something that's different I guess but... I mean Idk... Never been put through that before... Anyway... Just a few minutes ago I was using his phone and I was on his gmail.... He had no inbox messages to I was like OK lol so he deletes sh*t... Something some where (curiosity I guess) made me click on his sent messages... He's been going on Craig's list and hitting up people from close by to give them rubbings and touching calling them baby and so I was like wtf... Because it wasn't to sexy slutty girls... It was to a 50 year old pervrerted man fat and hairy and I'm just like what the f**k... I didn't say anything.... Every time I do he's just... Always convincing me I think so badly of him or something so I ease up... But I don't wanna leave him I just wanna know I mean my default is me, am I that ugly? I'm 5'1. 110 lbs and I feel so hideous... Someone answer this question... Please help :(