I'm sort of having problems with "pleasuring myself". . .

Whenever I pleasure myself I always have to be wearing these specific clothes, sit on a specific chair, and use one specific hand (I don't have anything like OCD, by the way.) I have been doing it this way for about four or five years now. The clothes I wear are never washed. I have no idea when they were last washed. However, if I ever think of washing them or even just pleasure myself in some different clothes, I feel. . .weird about it. Like, I guess I feel like I shouldn't be doing it in those clothes or something. I would like to, though. But Whenever I even think about changing clothes, I keep thinking that people (family) brushed against my clothes or something, and the clothes I use to pleasure myself with are hidden in a place only I can find them, so their not touched by anyone else.

Another issue I sort of have is that I would like to do it more of when I feel like it, rather than wait all day till night and do it.

I also won't do it if I know school is tomorrow, or I'm doing something like shopping with my mom or something.

The thing that bothers me about this is that I feel really alone on this! I have a friend who does it whenever she feels like it basically (obviously in her privacy) and I want to feel like that as well, but it just feels odd to me.

Does anyone else have any similar problems? %-)