Hi Everyone,
Excellent forum, I’ve read all 7 pages of postings, twice.
It’s just after Boxing Day ’06 of this writing. Just had Christmas, lots of food, drink, and smoked a joint with my brother-in-law.
My other brother-in-law (his brother) passed away Christmas Day 2002; he froze to death sleeping outside on the streets, (his choice). He started with smoking pot, and then went on to harder stuff.
Christmas is now a sad time with my wife’s family because of Joey passing away.
Just had yet another fight with my wife for smoking pot on Christmas Day, while her parents mourn the lose of their son.
My wife tells me that if I was honest with her (about smoking pot) when we first met, she would not be with me now. I guess we would never have had 2 beautiful kids, a nice house, etc…
My wife is very against drugs, as she witnessed first hand her brothers using steady.
I’m a 38 year-old male, I must say, after smoking pot for over 23 years, I’m hooked!!
My wife has granted my permission to smoke on “special occasions”, however, everyday to me is a special occasion.
I’m sensitive to her feelings, and try and hide my smoking ritual. It’s very foolish to me to hide what I enjoy doing. Perhaps this is an indication that it is not right and time to quit. If I truly believed I enjoyed smoking pot, I would not hide it and not give a sh*t what people think.
But I do hide it, get paranoid about it. I calculate when my wife and kids go to sleep to smoke a joint, get all my sprays ready to mask the smell, put eye drops in, use wet nap’s or peel an orange to rid the smell.
I have spent LOTS of money of pot, now; I only roll with King Size papers, this way I can smoke a bit, put it out, and then return for more without having to roll another.
I have always have pot on my mind, I know who with, where, how much, and when I’m going to smoke. Everything is calculated. I can’t imagine not having it in the house, just in case, you never who might drop by or for a late night smoke.
Smoking pot gives me such a warm feeling; it casts a spell over my body and mind. I’ve been waiting for the magic to happen for 23 years, but there is no magic, only wasted money, wasted brain cells, and what ever else is going on inside my resin filled body.
But now I need to kick it.
I don’t want my kids to know Daddy smokes. I want to see my kids grow-up and actually remember life events.
I don’t want to fight with my wife and have to defend myself about smoking pot. What if something tragic happened to the kids, and I’m too stoned to react to the crisis, what a nightmare that would be.
I did smoke last night before I found this site, however, after reading everybody’s postings, this has inspired me to join you’ all in saying NO and get back to being clean.
Today, I will begin to withhold smoking pot, and replace pot with something else that gives me pleasure. Don’t know what yet.
I will miss Mary-Jane very much, but I know quitting is the right thing to do.
New Years Eve will certainly be a challenging time to quit, but the way I see it, every day above ground is a special occasion, I don’t want to mess it up.
My brother-in-law is also addicted to pot; I hope I can be an inspiration to him so he does not end up as Joey did.
Dec 26 ‘06
Spent the night with the family. Itching to burn one, however, did not. Slept like c**p, tight burning sensation in my chest.
Still thinking about.
Excellent forum, I’ve read all 7 pages of postings, twice.
It’s just after Boxing Day ’06 of this writing. Just had Christmas, lots of food, drink, and smoked a joint with my brother-in-law.
My other brother-in-law (his brother) passed away Christmas Day 2002; he froze to death sleeping outside on the streets, (his choice). He started with smoking pot, and then went on to harder stuff.
Christmas is now a sad time with my wife’s family because of Joey passing away.
Just had yet another fight with my wife for smoking pot on Christmas Day, while her parents mourn the lose of their son.
My wife tells me that if I was honest with her (about smoking pot) when we first met, she would not be with me now. I guess we would never have had 2 beautiful kids, a nice house, etc…
My wife is very against drugs, as she witnessed first hand her brothers using steady.
I’m a 38 year-old male, I must say, after smoking pot for over 23 years, I’m hooked!!
My wife has granted my permission to smoke on “special occasions”, however, everyday to me is a special occasion.
I’m sensitive to her feelings, and try and hide my smoking ritual. It’s very foolish to me to hide what I enjoy doing. Perhaps this is an indication that it is not right and time to quit. If I truly believed I enjoyed smoking pot, I would not hide it and not give a sh*t what people think.
But I do hide it, get paranoid about it. I calculate when my wife and kids go to sleep to smoke a joint, get all my sprays ready to mask the smell, put eye drops in, use wet nap’s or peel an orange to rid the smell.
I have spent LOTS of money of pot, now; I only roll with King Size papers, this way I can smoke a bit, put it out, and then return for more without having to roll another.
I have always have pot on my mind, I know who with, where, how much, and when I’m going to smoke. Everything is calculated. I can’t imagine not having it in the house, just in case, you never who might drop by or for a late night smoke.
Smoking pot gives me such a warm feeling; it casts a spell over my body and mind. I’ve been waiting for the magic to happen for 23 years, but there is no magic, only wasted money, wasted brain cells, and what ever else is going on inside my resin filled body.
But now I need to kick it.
I don’t want my kids to know Daddy smokes. I want to see my kids grow-up and actually remember life events.
I don’t want to fight with my wife and have to defend myself about smoking pot. What if something tragic happened to the kids, and I’m too stoned to react to the crisis, what a nightmare that would be.
I did smoke last night before I found this site, however, after reading everybody’s postings, this has inspired me to join you’ all in saying NO and get back to being clean.
Today, I will begin to withhold smoking pot, and replace pot with something else that gives me pleasure. Don’t know what yet.
I will miss Mary-Jane very much, but I know quitting is the right thing to do.
New Years Eve will certainly be a challenging time to quit, but the way I see it, every day above ground is a special occasion, I don’t want to mess it up.
My brother-in-law is also addicted to pot; I hope I can be an inspiration to him so he does not end up as Joey did.
Dec 26 ‘06
Spent the night with the family. Itching to burn one, however, did not. Slept like c**p, tight burning sensation in my chest.
Still thinking about.
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I've been smoking for over 20 years now, I'm honestly sick of dealing with it... "am I almost out" "oh sh*t I need papers" "please answer your phone" "what time can we meet?" "I need to run an errand" blah blah blah.
It took a long time but its getting old. My issue is I have a very very very stressful job, coming home and smoking makes it all better, but I cant do it in moderation, I have to smoke it if I have it, as often as possible...
I just finished my stash today, I"m NOT going to call my contact, I'm NOT going to pick any more up either, I'm determind to get through this, thank god I have some Ativan to help with the sleep drama.
Pray for me to stay strong and get through the next few weeks.
It took a long time but its getting old. My issue is I have a very very very stressful job, coming home and smoking makes it all better, but I cant do it in moderation, I have to smoke it if I have it, as often as possible...
I just finished my stash today, I"m NOT going to call my contact, I'm NOT going to pick any more up either, I'm determind to get through this, thank god I have some Ativan to help with the sleep drama.
Pray for me to stay strong and get through the next few weeks.
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Dear all,
Have you heard of MA or AA? These are support groups for people seeking help for addiction to pot and alcohol, respectively. I've been clean for almost 4 years and would be happy to share how I did it...but you can check out MA's website at marijuana-anonymous.org/ to see for yourself. You don't have to (and probably can't) do it alone. Respond by post with an update!
All the best.
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Have you heard of MA or AA? These are support groups for people seeking help for addiction to pot and alcohol, respectively. I've been clean for almost 4 years and would be happy to share how I did it...but you can check out MA's website at marijuana-anonymous.org/ to see for yourself. You don't have to (and probably can't) do it alone. Respond by post with an update!
All the best.
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