Im 30 years old and had a girl I knew a couple months approach me about being attracted to me.. I'm a bi sexual woman and have been for about 9 years now. She was having curiosity thoughts I had initially told her I was not really into woman who were trying it out for the first time cause I've done that before and it ended no so good.. So after about two weeks of her and I talking about this subject I started to develop an very small emotional feelings for her.. after a lengthy talk one evening with her about the last experience I had we decided to give it a go. We dated for about 3 months things sometimes we rocky cause of her being new to this... she dumped all these feelings about two months into the relationship and then things started the downhill spirl.. I am married to a wonderful husband who allowed her to be here many nights to spend with me.. the sexaual part never went to far she allowed me to go down twice and fool around a couple of times but she never did any of this to myself... I knew it was cause she was new and probably alittle uncomfortable.. Now at the beginning of September not even 2 hours after celebrating here 21st birthday she left me. I know she is young and immaturity might have something to do with this but she wanted a weekend away just the two of us that I had planned not even 5 days away and she does this... The next month was hell for myself she had said many hurtful things and I knew a lot was out of confusion and I think hurt on her end she kept telling me that this bi thing was not for her.. then one day she text me and said she was second guessing her decision and it did not surprise me... So since the beginning of October we have seen each other on many occasions and when Im with her she wants to hold hands snuggle and occasionally will kiss me... She admitted she wishes she had gone along on trip with me ans so on..She says her feelings are basically the same but she is not into woman and it's not her... She is constantly flipping back and forth all the time... This has taken a toll on me since September 9th.. I must admit this is the only female I have fallen in love with.. she keeps saying she misses cuddling and wants to curl up to me at night and so on but flips and flops her emotions so much it has truly messed with my head.. now she started seeing a guy that has caught on to how much she text me and he had ask her what is going on... She told him we had something at one time but are only friends which I don't mind cause I've remained friends with a lot of females I have dated... But now he wants her to have no contact with me via text or person she admitted this last night to me when. He called and she said for me to be quite... Now they have only been dating three weeks and talking about moving in together getting ring so on to early but that's beside the point...so last night she held my hand kissed me and told me she wanted to spend the night some night here soon cause she misses all that.. first off she is sneaking this behind his back cause he does not want her around me... So this morning I text her and started to ask a series of questions like before.. But today she admitted that she does not wanna loose him but can't get over her feelings for me but being with a woman is not for her but she has said this for the last two months... She says she is not attracted to woman and if her and I stop talking she will not pursue another female ever again... I have ask many friends and exs what's going on I keep getting she is playing a game cause she is immature and likes to play games but my gut keeps telling me something different and so far it has been right my gut that is... I have one male friend that suggests I keep riding this out... I told her this morning she needed to look deep down in her heart at her feelings and take a close look at them.... Someone plz help me ive never been this confused about what's going on here... I need help I am truly in love with her but I know this can't keep going this way someone help me plz and thank you