It's been an emotional roller coaster. We got pregnant with IVF and I couldn't have been happier, my levels started off great until I went to my week 5 appointment. We saw the sac that day which was exciting nad thought that finally we can rest assured that things were on track. Later that afternoon, I got a call that my Dr. was concerned about pregnancy as I had missed the HCG mark just slightly. She increased my progesterone dose as my levels had dropped slightly (I went from 10 to 8) she also put me on thyroid medicine as my levels had dropped. This was on a Friday and was told to go see her on Tuesday.

So now I have the whole weekend to worry what is going on. I see her on that Tuesday and well the sac grew but my HCG levels had dropped form 1342 to 1223 which means impending miscarriage. I was devastated and felt helpless. My Dr. said that the baby was probably chromosomally abnormal so my body was getting rid of the pregnancy. I spent the whole day in tears and accepting the loss.

A week later I go back to the Dr and I had started lightly bleeding the night before but nothing like a period. I go and the Dr says there is something in the sac, that wasn't there last week. I should be 6W4days by now and should see a heart beat but we don't. So even though my HCG levels dropped the baby was still growing. I decided to do blood work so that I could have some answer of what was going on internally in my body. My HCG level had dropped from the 1223 to 742. I am bleeding and can see tissue coming out. I am having a miscarriage as there is no way the baby could survive with levels dropping like they are.

There is so much that the Dr's don't tell you when you start to go through IVF and you have to go to blogs or the internet to give you some peace of mind. I am sorry for all the other women who have to go through a miscarriage and the loss of a baby. It is heartbreaking and I just want you to know your not alone.