I've done it all as well. HCG, Weightwatchers, LA Weightloss ... the list goes on and on. I can say, however, that I have found something that WORKS, and is an absolutely awesome and healthy way to lose.
Number one .... I HATE to read such terrible thinking about oneself, however I've been there. I understand the self loathing, and the physical pain that comes with being overweight. My husband at one time weighed in at 330, while I myself at the heaviest was 230 (I'm 5'2"). Even though we lost a bit here and there, I had never had complete success with weight loss. Until now ....
My husband and I have gone on to lose 100 pounds combined so far, and have found a new lease on life. So much change has happened in my life both phycially and mentally, that I completely did a 180 in career paths, and am now a Wellness Coach.
Working with youth has actually become a passion for me as well, and I would love to be able to assist you on your journey. What is it you may ask .... The program I personally stand by and have become a product of is Herbalife. I can say that with the proper coaching and motivation (both free of charge) you can successfully meet your goals a HEALTHY way.
Being healthy is more than just "weight" .... It's also finding a way to love yourself. I would love to assist you Alex in your journey as well. It's EASY, it's FAST, and it works with your budget. I work with indivduals in several states, and am easily accessible through phone and email.
I've been there .... I completely empathize with where you're at, but KNOW that there is a way out. Please contact me if interested.