My family puts me down and make me feel horrible to the point where I feel like killing myself,

I'm sorry your family is doing this stuff to you , i think you need to lean on people who will care 

 

Best Wishes 

My mom and my stepdad constantly put me down. My mother calls me lazy and that i never do anything to help around the house because i ususally have 3-5 hours of homework every day.Then there's my stepdad......he hates me because im not athletic.Im the opposite in fact.Im a geeky boy who would prefer to read a book, play video games, or watch animerather than play football or do yard work. He has told me in the past that he thinks that there is something wrong with me mentally, and that if i dont change he would send me to a mental hospital. Sometimes they even flip out at me for the slightest thing such as dropping a roll of tin foil, or messing up my first time cooking ramen or sloppy joes. I have even pondered about suicide many, many times. of course i have never had the balls to tell anyone about it....Even worse, they treat my sister liek a princess. She is 10, im 14, and she has a phone, and i dont.My parents buy her special snacks and they buy me nothing. they make me do chores after i finish 5 hours of homework, and she doesent have to do anything.I just got in big trouble for wanting to do my homework instead of mowing the lawn.They just tell me how worthless and how lazy i am. ive nearly been put over the edge. i have my faveorite pocket knife next to me right now, and im more depressed than ever. im gonna try some of your advice.....i really hope it works.....because im at the edge right now.

TO Mr. Edge right now... First of may I say at least 60% of all BOYS & Girls in the USA have the same type of house living .. BUT Remember you are the oldest of the children and yes times are going to be hard on you ..BUT if and when you get 18 and get out of school tray getting in the ARMY ,NAVY ,USMC ,or the Air Force or even the USCG .. You say your smart then be smart ..LIVE YOUR life to the good .Go to CHURCH and be a V I Person in your life ..Don't late people put you DOWN .. PLEASE LIVE A GOOD LIFE and a SAFE ONE .. Know this is just me thinking out loud ... From someone how cares .. I was that same boy 53 years ago .. With understanding feelings Mr..C

Best thing to do ignore them. Focus on your work and study and health. Y

I think I have the same problem. The thing is I feel like a waste of space. As if it seems that they take time to admire my flaws, but never even glance back at the things that make me stand out. As if they always want me to always be succesful. They tell me that I will never be able to have a good future if I keep failing. They scare me. And they think it helps. But it doesn't. It fvcking hurts. And I can't take it anymore. Yes we do have everything we'll ever need. But turns out... I don't. They don't love me. All I want is a happy family. Which seems too blurry and too high for us to reach. I want it to just stop. I want to tell them about this. But I know they'll just shrug it off. And even call me sane and blame it all on me. Once I even told them that I was depressed. You know what they did? Ha. I thought they would come knocking on my door and come barging in with hugs. But no. They just laughed at me. They even called me sane and stupid. They never understand me. They never care about my feelings. And they act as if they know my feelings well when thay can't even name my favorite color nor know my own age. How nice. I want to just dissapear but everytime I look around I see my circle of friends by my side. They are my family. I don't know if I can even call my family... A family of my own. It hurts. I've been keeping this in for 5 years now or should I say my whole life.

Honestly, it sounds awful. Just, it might be hard but think about the good things in life. Think of what you have to live for. How much is coming your way.

I can totally relate to your problem. My brother & Dad are always putting me down... they called me stupid so many times, it made me think I had a learning disability.... but I worked so hard and used their anger to fuel my ambition.... I’ve now got a masters in education and I’ve bought my own flat.... I promise. This time will pass.... you need to focus on your studies.... do some holistic therapy so you can heal yourself.... yoga, meditation etc..., find your nearest Buddhist centre, they may be able to help you... most importantly realise, you are not alone!!!... so many people come from broken backgrounds.... use it to fuel your ambition & get the hell away from your family.... you will meet good people on your journey. Good luck

Bad advice. Your brothers aren't "annoying you" like usual siblings, they're taunting you and emotionally abusing you like your parents. Sitting down and talking won't work with these people, they're lowbreads who'll never see beyond their own noses.

My life is very similar to yours. I agree with some of the other commenters here; focus on your education and on yourself. Do whatever you can to get out of that house and stand on your own two feet. I'm sure you're a wonderful person and you'll find (or may have found) people who'll love you and care for you through thick or thin.

Stay strong, don't let them drag you down to their level

: hope u r still there

You are not a lone. After reading your story. Mine is still more worst. Stay strong.. and try your best to move out.

I know how exactly how you feel I have a toxic relationship with my parents, Everything I do seems doesn't seem enough for them I did alot to help out i even to quit school to take care of my younger siblings so they could work I have a casual job too but mostly evening shifts. And when I get home from work my father's always drink alot and nothing but booze is all he cares about my mother drinks every other weekends but shes always putting me down saying I did all this for you for many years and whatever.. Once I was drunk and about to take a s**t load or a handful pills to end my life but I don't know why didn't do it.. Even fighting with my father while he's drunk he told me a couple times I'm a mistake when I was walking to my room so I would listen to music and just cry cause I can't do this any longer