my girlfriend killed me when she shot herself.

I wish I could help. :(

I know we all do but there is nothing you can do i am reading a book about a girl and her bf died in a car crash but she said "you move on because you have to ,but theres always the part that will hold on " so i guess wot im sayin is jus ask around if any sports clubs are avalible so you can focus on acheiving a goal and it will take your mind of it

I know what it's like to lose someone very close to you. If you need a chat about anything and let out all emotions message me I will listen & answer.

thank you very much. I dont have my computer hooked up yet. im at the library now. I work constantly. but it would be nice to talk w somone. I should have my computer fixed within a week or so.

Write me a message on here once it's fixed and you're all sorted.

i know how you are feeling, my gf killed herself 17 days ago and im destroyed, i dont even know what else to say other then im here if you need to chat x

Hey how are you. I havnt been on here in a long time.I been doin ok i guess....how about you?I am very lucky with my job I can work when ever I want to. Some days are worse than others. I cried each day for the first 68 days. still a puddle of gew.

thank you. i have not still goten straight. I have 4 cats and a dog. my house is a wreck! I just got my computer out of the shop like five min ago.I been goin through all her stuff little by little, cant do much at a time. I stayed drunk olone in the house that it happened in for the first 6 weeks. I was doin much better with the drinkin and goin out a little. but last thur got I dui. I got a lawyer and go to court the 8th. I got one about 8 yrs ago so they want to send me to jail for 45 days. If a loose my place and job and hit rock bottom ...."my cheese is goin to slide clear off my cracker" . This all just sucks so bad!!!!!!!!!!!

You should find me on face book. I can do that on my phone till I get straight.....Ha I'm "Cant get straight" any ways...... you can find me Jacob Powers I live in Loudon TN n have blond hair.

You should find me on face book also. Jacob powers in Loudon TN.

This is the same Jacob powers. Just over two years later. I thought I should tell what has happened in the time since. Three months after Natalie "passed" I got a DUI @ New years. For me to get out of jail, I was equipped with a ankle device that detected any alcohol. So I didn't drink for 9 months. Therefore keeping my license. Keeping my job as a maintenance man. Living in the same apartment it happened..... anyway! I spent that time organizing her belongings, which were many my friend. I was able to get everything to family that wanted it. Also I/we had some much stuff. I wanted, needed, and did sell or donate almost everything. Which wasn't easy.There was just so much, that you never think of. I knew at some point I would have to relinquish my licence, and go to jail for forty five days. Which I did, and was done with that September 1st 2013. Just after jail I spent a few weeks with family,shaved, then went camping. I spent a couple weeks camping. Way out in bfe down by the river, very near a large Indian cave(Cherokee)which is in Rutledge Tn and so is my Dad's and Grandmother's houses. I'm talking weeks and miles of caves. That's how I spent the one year anniversary of her death. It was very nice by myself after being in that cage...I.e. That apartment being one and jail the mild other. I had saved a little money and having no licence I stayed with my grandmother and just took a few months off. Took a job remodeling/ redoing plumbing and mechanical @ renovated Hooters restaurants. ( which I might add was not terrible at all!!!) I would be out of town, maybe in another state, for a month. Working and eating there each day( only so many ways you can eat chicken though).....Then I would go home for a few weeks. It was great for the winter. OK. Now. Here the plot thickens. Two years ago for Nathalie's funeral I flew to Florida from Tn. Which is where she was from, and also myself although we never knew each other there, we had met in Tn.I met all her family that she had not talked to in 6 years.I only knew her 3-3 1/2 years. We were together for two years...., to the day,yes it was our anniversary, So I got to thinking...I had not talked to in 13 years I had not seen my sister in 13 years also ,but had talked to a little. So I reached out to them and they went to the funeral with me and we spent like five days together. I promised my sister I would be back to Fl. That's why I worked and saved and sold everything and just got rid of it all. Consolidated. I turned 31 March 2nd this year and left Tn on March 8th just as plamned, in time for bikeweek.I left with just a big box of hand and powertools. I work for the land lord and a bunch of contractors or rich homeowners or even family down here. But only when I want to. I'm seeing all kinds of long lost family. I am a water creature, I am in it all the time here in paradise. I am surrounded by many springs and streams. I have even been sailing, very interested in having that in my future. My sister and I get along well enough. It has been quite the party. I work when I want. I make great money when I do. I sleep when I want, I sleep great when I do. I very tan and very happy.

Thank you. Its been two years now and I have updated my information on how I am. Please read. Thanks again for way back when.

Hey man, my Natalie just did the same thing. We had so many plans and things we wanted to accomplish. Now I'm lost, my goals are no longer my goals. How do I do the things we wanted without her? I know I'm not helping, just wondering how you are and how you feel now?