and decided to just quit...here is my journal from when I started to when I was well enough to write
in it again....
Journal while withdrawing from Methadone:
Stopped cold turkey..no problems all day. Slept as well as if I had taken my dose.
Use to taking my methadone around 4pm daily..it came and went with no problems again.
Again no problems although I had a desire to take it and forget about doing this but didn't.
Starting to feel withdrawal effects today..running nose, running eyes, skin crawling...not too bad
it is manageable though feel a little antsy though..my heartrate is a little faster like in a panic
Didn't sleep well at all. Was up and down and experiencing diahrrea, feeling sick to my stomach,
skin crawling eyes running really bad, nose running like a facet. Feel cold chills and feeling hot flashes..sure would like to give this up but will stick with it. Legs are beginning to cramp. Out of energy. Feel sleepy but can't sleep.
Day Six: Last night pure hell..did not sleep any at all. Thought about just taking a tiny bit but didn't..why would anyone want to suffer like this. today I am in bed as I have no energy, hot cold chills and my stomach hurts, legs are crawling like they can't stay still, can't eat anything or drink anything. nothing smells good or taste good or looks good, I know I need to eat somehting but the ghought is tomuch for me to think abuot..gotta lay down.
have not slept in 2 days now, eompletly exhausted no energy whatso erver, hard to breahte heart is beating so fast it hurtsm y chest, my bloud suger is low so is blood presure. suger is 48 and presure is 85/55 and heart rate is 130bpms..way to high. sure want to feed the mumkkey. laying donw.
Cannot do this i am dying.
day10. need hlep cant sit up very weakhavent eatin or drank anything in days, stil have some diarrhea
puking dry heaves shaking uncontrolnbly. should stop this. how much longer the days are too long why do't I just take some medicine I have plenty, if i take it now after puittng myslf trough this agony i will killmyself. lying down so so tired.
day 13. coldnot right for the past 3 days bood sugar is still low as i cnaot iat i just lay in bed all day and toss and turn i cnart realy describe how i feel not really pleas don't put syourself strhough this withjout help. iam alone and by myslef. wil try to eat some soup today and rink a sprite. my head seels like slush i have no enefgy to push a micrswave butonor open the can. i am litterayl crwling on hands and kennes. eys are shut cant open them .
day 14. god when does it end i ate soup and came up with bile alwfulkl.
Day 30: I had to stop writing for 2 weeks there as I just couldn't keep up. I couldn't even set at the computer as I had no energy to move out of the bed. I did not take any of my methadone during this time period. I went cold turkey for 30 days. I feel much better now although not fully functional. I am still out of energy but eating better. Still can't sleep a full night as I keep tossing and turning..I have some really strange dreams that I can't put on paper. One thing I have noticed is an extremely hard erection. I am so sensitive that I can ejaculate with just thinking about it...so strange to do that. It feels good to get relief as I have missed that for years. I have feelings all over my body, when I pull my hair on my head it feels so good. A shower feels great. If I could just sleep..I miss a heavy sleep. I am glad I did this alone as if I had my wife here now she would think I am a sexual deviant, don't know why I am thinking about this so much. I am just writing what is going on with me.
Day 40: The worst is over I hope. finally got about 4 hours of sleep last night without waking up. I am eating better, blood sugar is back to normal and blood pressure is still good, heart rate spikes like I am having an anxiety attack or something but I just try to calm myself. Trying to stay on a routine. Had sex with my wife if that is what you want to call it, lasted a whole 45 seconds but it was such an awesome orgasm I can't begin to describe it..one after the other and I felt like it was not going to stop. Is this what women mean when they talk about multiple orgasm's??? After we had sex I was ready again..then after that I wanted to do it again..I was insatiable.
Day 46: This will be my last entry providing nothing drastic occurs. Those of you who want to try this read what I went through and make your decision. Would I do it again. NO..I would not put myself through that again.
One very important thing to remember is that about 2-3 months after being clean, you will go through a brief period where you might think you feel worse than you did before you started using. This causes a lot of people to relapse. When this happens, you have to remind yourself that its the addiction trying to come back one last time. After this happens, you can celebrate because the addiction is over and you have your life back.
I live with a roomate and I would suggest no one go through any detox without someone checking on them daily.
I was on 174mg. of methodone for the last 2 1/2 years. I quit cold turkey on Sept.10, 2010. Here are the things I did and in doing so, I miraculously have not gone through any w.s. except the first 8 days I was manic, even euphoric.. I waited for the hell to begin those first few days but it did not. And it has not come yet!
MOST IMPORTANT; HYDRATE, HYDRATE, HYDRATE! I drank 4-6 liters of water a day. Used an empty M.Dew container.
At the time of this act, I was on meds. for my bi-polar. Thus I continued to take each mostly as prescribed. )Nurontin I took more.
I did not drink alcohol or do any other drugs. These are what I lived on:
1 multivitimin daily
1 (over the counter) Estraven (normal dose)
1-2 bowls of Raisen Bran per day with Splenda and banana
Gabapenten (Neorontin) 600 mgs. 3 times a day
Abilify 15 mgs./daily
1 mg. Klonapin 2 daily when and only when needed (I looked upon them as gold nuggets I would need when the symptoms arrived.
Serequel 400mgs. at night
trileptal 300 mgs at night
Here went the agenda:
Day 1 (sept 11) no WD at all
Day 2 (Sept 12 Thoughts becomeing more crispy, less muddied, started to feel euphoric (Manic). Still on no day yet have I felt any symptoms at all. No RLS, slept fine, muscles never cramped, Mania took care of the lack of energy one would have by now.
Euphoria was prevelent. Food was difficult.
Sept 13 Still home. getting bit nervous about lack of W.D. symptoms.Began to make arrangements with local detox centers in case this was all just a grace period before the S. Hit the Fan.
Sept 14 Still no diareeah, absolutly no symptoms except having a long over due bowel movement. Slept fine with prescribed meds. No aches, pains, nausea, vomiting or RLS
Sept 15 MANIC to be sure! Still kept chugging as much water as I could daily. Stayed on meds.
Sept 16 I and my caseworker decided I should be under medical observation for Manic Behavior. Euphoric to the end. Same day I entered psychiatric hospital with addictionologists on staff. Still no W.s. Although at this point I noticed my skin was very sensitive.
Showers killed me. I just backed off.
Sept 17 New medical protocol for MANIA was developed. Also, included Klonopins, Neurontins . And on this stay I was diagnosed with ADHD so ritalin was prescribed.
Sept 18-25 Stayed under observation for delayed Methadone W.S. and Mania. Was released on 25th of Sept.
Post Script: I write all of this because its just a little too miraculous to be ignored. I am of the belief that God had alot to do with these
happenings. Divine Intervention to be sure. When I was asked to explain by many I just reiterated what I'd come to believe. That this was a "fishes and loaves" level miracle to be sure. I am also of the belief that God gifted me with his HOLY SPIRIt to come into my body during this happening. To say I am very grateful at this point is an understatement. I do believe God gave me the dicipline to flush my system out entirely and to stick with my original med schedule to soften the blows if and when they came. Which they still havent.
This is my story since coming off a huge dosage of Methadone daily. I only endorse this program for myself. If anyone else is inclined to adopt this regime, do so at your own discretion, Have someone check on you daily and HYDRATE, HYDRATE, HYDRATE. Praise God, miracles still exist.
I'm on day 37 and i'm still suffering some ill effects from it being in the cognitive sense
I truely believe that Methadone really plays with the wiring in your brain. I've been ok
with all the other symptoms and around day 20 i was sleeping 6 hours without interuption.
Now the big problems I have is random fatigue and overall feeling like c**p.
The other issue I have is emotion. It's like the pleasure center in your brain is toasted.
I can't really feel when i have to sleep so i lay in bed for over a half an hour and fall out finally.
There's so many things that this drug does that is negative I really can't understand from
a Pain management standpoint why a doc would treat with it unless it was addiction related.
My choice was going to methadone because I was sick of being a zombie on the other meds Oxy's and such.
So for 9 months I took methadone and was up to 100mg a day. Then the day came I looked at the bottle
and said I've had enough. I discharged myself from the pain management facility I attended and
bid my Doc farewell. 37 days later i'm doing pretty well but I can't imagine that the negative effects will
last much longer. Depression and anxiety are the worst of it all I think.
Anyone else have the same issues where you just can't seem to feel the things your body is
asking for like sleep and general simple feelings like hunger? It's hard to explain but I can't
be the only one out here who suffers these side effects. Please let me know and GOD BLESS ALL WHO QUIT!
Im 25 F, FEBRUARY 2011 i was on 100 mg methadone a day. I did the iboga treatment, which took away about 75% of the withdrawals, and then i was able to handle the rest... and even that was hard
But i got off
i thought i never would
but you just have to do it
it is possible
i did it
and i have the lowest pain toleranceever
so good luck