Quitting Cannabis! 2013 (Heavy Smoker)

Hello!! (: This site has helped me SO much that I created a account to hopfully help others! Here's all the help I gathered and my personal experience! I'm 24 years old and I've been smoking for 5 years (3 grams a day of medical marijuana) On 4/18 I woke up sober saw a friend chilled with him all day until about 7pm then got home, loaded a nice bowl of Blue Dream and took a nice rip outta my brand new Blue Dot and started playing the new COD zombies map. For some reason (5 mins) I didn't feel right, thinking that made me realize something wasn't right and I actually had a panic attack! My first one and it scared the hell outta me! (Literally) After 3hours of being babied by my family I decided its time to quit! I fell asleep that night. 4/19 I woke up and decided hmm.. Maybe it just a bad trip.. So I tried to smoked AGAIN! This time some Kush outta a Pipe. But no sh*t I instenly had another attack that lasted 2 hours! It went away around 5pm and I was sure I was going to quit. (And I did) But that day I was very scared about these attacks and I actually thought so much that I put my self into having another one! So I said screw it ill go to the ER to make sure everything is alright. Blood work came back good expect I was low on vitdamin D. (14)(avrage is 35-10) This was because I was a home bound stoner who never went outside!! She gave D pills Also she gave me meds to deal with the anxiety attacks! But I knew I'd only take them if needed! 4/20 woke up and felt every symptom of the withdraws (cloudy head/vision, watery poo, couldn't sleep, couldn't eat, crazy dreams, depressed thoughts, aniexty, edgy and just felt like HELL!) so I made my self drink water and protein shakes! Had an minor attack but popped a pill and relaxed. 4/20-4/29 (today).. Long story short you'll feel all these symptoms but you'll notice all of the physical symptoms DO fade away day by day. Trust me you'll have a day or two where you feel like capping your self wile laying in bed not beind able to sleep and you'll have a day or two where youre scared to go anywhere. You'll get Anxiety when driving or thinking of going somewhere but these feelings DO fade away. Everyday that goes by you learn to train your new sobar self that a panick attack will NOT kill you! Remember that everytime you're having one and I promise you'll feel better, also when you're having one or feeling like you might JUST remember you're almost one day closer to the new you without THC in your body! THINK POSITIVE! The more you start drilling the positivity into your head the easier and faster you recover! Today it's been 9 days sober and I've had a few panic attacks inbetween and I get anxiety but I know it's from the withdraws and I've learned to accept them and tell my self that they are just little episodes. Everyday foward that I have one they are less and less until eventually they won't be there! This is common, you'll be irritable and to much noise or being around alot of chatty people will trigger your aniexty but that's just because of the withdraws! You don't have a disorder you simply just need to be In relaxed chilled sitiations for a few days maybe weeks. When you're driving and you feel that aniexty just pull over and relax. Turn off your music and close your eyes. Just keep remembering that you're in control and you can get out of any sitiations when you want. Show your self that and over time you won't even need to! Train your brain to know that you're in control of your feelings I'm the end. I'm honestly so much happier without smoking tho at time I find my self bored and wish to smoke but then I just find things to keep me busy! And think of good things to look foward to! Places you'd like to someday visit or people youd love to one day meet ect. I know this is hard but I believe the sooner you accept these problems and learn to deal with them the sooner you feel good! When Im having anxiety I just like peace and quite as I keep the good thoughts in my head and bam I'm better! I don't try to ignore the anxiety as that makes it worse, accept that you just need to chill and even pull your self out of a sitiations to relax so your brain knows that next time if you're scared you can easily chill and "be safe" This is all because of your withdraws and the reason I had a panic attack in the first place was because my time of being a lazy stoner was up! I mean sh*t isn't it crazy that I bought a oz and new bong for 4/20 and this all happened just days before? It's a sign and even I was able to see it! Good luck with your recoveries and stay positive! Also I haven't played video games since my first attack, doesn't listen to the same music I did when stoned, I take a multi vitamin everyday now and drink no caffeine only water, tea and cranberry juice! At day 7 I was eating again, could sleep semi normal, depression was mostly gone, anxiety was fading away day by day! Much love <3