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Day 1: Today was tough, all I thought about all day long was weed.  I'm pretty sure my body doesn't know it's about to get screwed over bad yet :), I went to the gym, ate perfect, drank tonnes of liquids and just got back from hot yoga.  Hot yoga my friends is one of the best things i've ever stumbled across in my life and I really feel that its going to be the difference in me getting through this.

I was really tired today, mentally drained from thinking about this feat ahead, but I decided I am not napping during the day for a long time.  I really don't want insomnea so i'm going to wear myself out everyday and not sleep in the day in hopes of a better nights sleep.  I don't think sleeps going to be an issue tonight but I know tomorrow is going to be bad, I can sense it.

I had a good talk with my best friend for 30yrs today, he smokes weed nightly but it really is only a haul or 2 an hour before bed.  I explained to him how if I could stick to a joint a night I would but I can't so I need to quit for a while.  I refuse to abandon my friends, smokers included, they don't make me smoke and are great friends, so it's on me to have the will power to be around it or ask them to go outside for a while during the adjustment (i'm away for 2 weeks tomorrow so that should be enough of a buffer).

Whats going through my head, the battle, is me saying to myself "f**k it, smoking isn't that bad, just cut back" but then I realize that I need this, I haven't lived without being high for a long long time and I want to know what it's like.  I may not be missing much, but I need to feel like my mind is back to 100% sober, learn to live like that, then decide whats better for my life, smoking or not.  I can honestly say I don't know the answer, I will be open minded about it.

A really big concern of mine is boredom, I am never ever ever bored while high, but right now i'm bored to death.

Bedtime, i'll keep you all posted about tomorrow, feels good to write it down.

 

 

 

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Thanks Mate,

Same position as you. I quit a few days ago, then my brain told me i should just cut down so i got on... only half what i would usually get so i suppose the intention is still there.

Keep us updated. It would be good to hear from alot of peeople on this forum as it has been active for a long while now.
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wow wow..my son emailed me your posting after a huge blow up with him regarding his pot use. This fight has been going on and off for two years. i have finally told him he needed to leave, i am battling my own issues ie depression, and other health issues. I told him i can not longer fight this fight with him and that i needed him to leave. He understands where i stand regarding his pot use..it has cost him is spot at San Jose state, he now attends a community college and is barley holding on to C grades...sorry i went off track here...the point is that he send me your post, and has admittted to a problem. Can he really do this alone..without doc. care plan...thank you for sharing this information it has given him motivation for now...however XANAX is also very addictive, need coping tools, as you have suggested ..thank you again. Good luck in your own endeavers...signed a Hopeful, sad, and scared MOM..
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My mum used to battle me. We fought for years. what a waste of time. some people smoke, do alcohol or whatever. It comes down to the circles you hang with but also a little bit of the responsibility has to lie with the parent.



In the end you can choose the be the fighting mother, or the friend thats there for him to talk to about this problem.
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I don't mean to be a rude beotch but IMO the original poster is all advice, posted here ONCE and then has never been heard from again.  I am thankful that he started this post and got it going BUT my heart tells me he didn't make it.  I do not agree with getting off weed and onto prescription drugs that is insane.  What your son has is a substance ADDICTION!  ADDICTION!  ADDICTION.  And in order to get off it it must be treated as such!  You cannot get all the answers here & I cannot post any helpful links — I tried once and got censored.  So I will leave you with this.  Marijuana is a secret addiction!  Do you a little self-research about it.  Even highly successful people have fallen into its strangling grip.

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Day 2: I slept like a baby last night but I had to text my friend at 5:30am telling him I wouldn't be at the gym because I was just too groggy and tired.  I really wasn't that energetic today and just sorta laid in bed and watched tv, it was raining hard here all day so that may have had something to do with my fatigue during the day.  I was thinking a few times today that I would change my quitting to cutting down but I shook my head and re-read my original posting on this and removed those thoughts from my head. At one point I told myself that I was just going to start smoking again and be a pothead for life but that's not what I want.

I went to the gym later in the day and skipped the 8:30 yoga because i'm tired and I think that was a mistake.  I'm not sure how tonights sleep will go but we shall see.  I really feel that 8:30 yoga slot is essential, perfect timing for it as nightime historically are smoke fests with me and the high I get from yoga should take me to my sleep time.

One major thing I noticed is that it doesn't look like someone blackened both my eyes anymore, 2 days and those tired eyes are gone, pretty amazing as i'm newly single and want to look good and the raccoon eyes aren't a good look.

The boredom stil is the biggest issue, but I think the result will be me doing more things fun as a result.  Pretty much thinking about weed all day, but I think that's going to be an issue for a while.

Overall, pretty easy day, much much better than I anticipated.  Not sure the body knows just yet...

I'm happy with 2 days, its pretty sad to say, but it is a huge feat for me and i'd say in the last 15 years there may have been 2 or 3 times I missed 2 days of smoking in a row and it certainly wasn't by choice those times.

I told a friend that I quit, he laughed, I said "I want to know what it's like to live straight for a while" he said "You may be dissapointed".  lol.  I don't know how this is going to turn out in the long run.  But in the short-term... I will make it thru day 3 :)

Let me re-iterate something, I am not judging people that smoke, if I could smoke a pinner before bed and be done with it I wouldn't be on here, but I can't, so I needed to make a change.  Those that are casual smokers and can keep it that way, we aren't in the same boat.

Goodnight everyone, smokers out there have a puff for me!

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Good work Dude, keep strong. im sure that if you keep telling your overactive brain to f^%k off then your will power and courage will double.

Keep us updated.
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The devil sitting on your shoulder urging you to smoke a little is just that!  You have to tell it to F^%k-Off.  Seriously - you have to resist it because it can continue to show up announced.  I've read a lot about this and it happens months out so be prepare to flick it away.

I fully understand it feels ridiculous to be proud of a whole 2 days without smoking but I also know first hand how big of a feat it is personally.  Embarrassed -- yes - - me too!  Oh well - - have to start somewhere and start accumulating the days.  I've found people getting cocky up in here after a week or more and them Boom - they smoke and then they're gone.  People drop like flies in here.  Each day clean is a job well done and another tick mark towards your goal of being clean in 2014 or whatever a person's goal is.

I am also newly single and I for sure do not want to enter into a relationship and have to hide anything.  I won't have to be out with a date wondering when I get away so I can go smoke some.  Another incentive for me to stay clean and make a fresh start.  Mr. Futureman will never need to know about my chronic bionic past. 

I am in the middle of week 3.  Time is practically standing still.  Time used to fly by, weeks, months, years  & now I have sooooooooooooooooo much time on my hands.  Another sign that the reefer was stealing away my life and I ready to defend it and take it back!  Don't give into the urges or the false hope that you can partake every now and then OR cut back.  Cold turkey beef jerky!

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I could see myself giving in to the devil a few months in so thatnks for the heads up. The idea of time standing still scares me.
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Young_Lady....I think I love you. LOL.

Back to the topic, I could understand how, after a certain amount of time passes, some people may not feel the need to use this forum anymore and they might just unsubscribe. At that point it becomes 'Out of sight out of mind'.....just like the pot.

 

I, for one, don't plan on posting here forever, do you?

 

I could just see it now....

 

Hey guys, it's day 13,456 for me. Just checking in so you guys dont think I am back on the bong.

 

LMFAO

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I am going to quit smoking pot after Thanksgiving. I have been smoking since high school (every day for 10 years, now smoking about 5 blunts/day) and I can't say that pot has ruined my life. I have been very successful at school, bought my own house at age 22, and am about to graduate one of the best colleges in the U.S. with almost a 4.0 gpa (3.89). I have always told myself that I would quit at the first sign of trouble (grades slipping, can't pay bills etc) and it hasn't happened. Now what is making me quit is that I am being presented with many opportunities for jobs once I graduate and I can't pass a drug test. I don't want to miss out on a life changing opportunity, so I believe now quitting is the best choice. Yes I know I can fake my way through a drug test but I'm going to pretend that is not an option and use this opportunity to quit. I probably will have the same issues with anxiety and sleep problems. I think having a support system will be my number one help during the quitting process. Reading some of your stories here has helped me learn it is possible to quit and learn what issues I will deal with. I will have finals about 3 weeks after my quitting and I hope I can make it through okay. I wanted to include my story to show that one can be very successful with long term pot use and still want to quit. I hope I can make it.

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30s - hilarious!  I'm pretty sure I'll be dead by the time you make that post!  HA!!  & No I don't plan on posting here everyday forever but I also don't think many people on this particular post have successfully quit.  There is another 4 ummm on line that does have posts from long long-term quitters.  Not daily posts like you wrote but more like revelations and insights and failed attempts getting back up.  Lots of posts about looking back & the differences they feel now. The best of quitters wisdom! It's pretty great because it's very active and there are archives that can help.  There is lots of support from long-time quitters who speak straight up truth.  People talk in terms of what they have experienced physically, mentally emotionally and it seems to be super inspiring and insightful.  I don't think we know yet what to expect from our journey and there, there are lots of stories to reference that make you go ---------> OH, OK, good to know.

@High Achiever — are you implying we're a bunch of lowlies????  I know successful doctors and high power NYC lawyers who smoke daily and graduated with 4.0's from Ivy League schools.  I know people with no degree who own big houses, fancy cars, boats and have shizzle tons of money who smoke daily.  It's not about your GPA, your IQ or where you got your degree, your bank account or even how much you achieved while smoking weed for years.  What it is about is addiction.  Addiction to a frickin' plant. 

I cannot say pot ruined my life either and for far too many years I never would have said I even had any problem with it.  I could do everything stoned.  I got lots of compliments on that - whatever!!!!  What I will say is is that I allowed it to get in the way of my human potential and life experience.  Years of chronic bionic changed me, changed my priorities and I chose to make it a top priority in my life.  When I was in college I never never would have imagined I would have still been smoking at age 40, ridiculous - but, I did.  What changed is I finally realized I had an addiction and that's not something I'm OK with - so I made a decision and I quit.  I hope you do too.

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@Y_L Sorry if that is what you inferred! I am not implying that I am above anybody. Just wanted to give a little backstory. I read many of your stories and they are very similar to mine so I relate! I was not saying I am successful and you are not- I am sure every one of us here has great attributes and things they are not so proud of- just like me. After reading some posts here I have already learned a ton that will prep me to quit next Friday. My main worry is that my schooling will suffer from me quitting cold turkey, I have tried to quit a few times before and its brutal! Anyways I am inspired by all your stories and I hope I can last as long as you guys have. I'll try to keep you all updated. Good luck all, stay strong.

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Hey High_Achiever -- no I have turrets!  My me doesn't come off well in text.  Your post sounds like back story.  I was making a point that it really comes down to substance abuse and addiction.  I was what people called a high achiever as well.  If someone could have gotten through to me at 25 and helped me see the light to quit I think would have been grateful.  I didn't start 'abusing' until about that age & never touched it before college.

I am not one to give advice because I'm an all or nothing kind of person but maybe you could cut back after Thanksgiving until your last final - then go cold turkey over the break.  I highly highly encourage you to quit.  You sound like you have a lot of potential and are very young.  I do believe pot interferes with human potential.  That is what I wish someone could have gotten through to me sooner.  Like you I functioned way too well on weed and no one ever thought I had a problem because of that... including me.  My clean self says absolutely FALSE!!!! 

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Hey everyone,

I just want to say thank you to everyone who has posted on this thread. You all have been very inspirational and have given me a lot of motivation.

I've been smoking since I was 20 (28 y/o now) and I need to stop so I can fulfill my dream to become a firefighter.  I just didn't realize how hard it was to quit. Smoking Mary Jane wasn't always a daily thing for me until I dealt with a traumatic experience in my life. I thought having a connect down the street and having a house to myself where I can smoke in was awesome. Fast forward to the present, I'm going out of my mind. Since my smoking has increased I've lost all motivation to do anything, I barely see my family and friends, it's so hard to hold a conversation with anyone, and I always feel tired. I've been trying to quit for months now only to fail. Those urges are just soo strong! Seems like not 10 min after I tell myself no more, those same old urges start to creep inside my head until persuaded to do so. This especially happens to me after a long stressful night of work. I just want to feel normal again. I want to feel as if I don't need it anymore. I feel like I have the World at my feet but MJ is the only thing holding me back. Blah I'm about to go to work right now...

Wish me luck everyone! Hopefully I'll be able to control these urges.

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