So much feels over at 50 when you wish to start anew

Having a baby at 50? Do you really want to be 70 when he/she grows up?

You can't go back, you need to look forward and find things you can enjoy doing now.

Nothing in the last 20 years of my life has gone the way I planned or expected. My career as a TV repair tech began to die 20 years ago when I was 50. How many TV repair shops do you see these days? My retirement plan was my house. I bought a house when I was 28 that had 3 apartments in it with the capabillity of a fourth. Living rent free in a house that's paid for with 3 apartments providing me income added to our social security should have given me and the wife a pretty darn good retirement. The diminishing TV business destroyed the "paid for" part and a zoning change took away the 4th apartment I planned to add. At 72 I have had to find a part time job to survive. My house is mortgaged for it's full value and I have no possible way to ever see it paid off. Our meager SS does not cover living expenses so my wife had to get a job too.

Over the years we have constantly met new friends and found new things to do for fun. Aside from the financial stress, we're having a great time. At least we still have our home and a whole bunch of friends. Nobody knows what will happen tomorrow but we are having a ball today. Being broke and trying to pay the bills is almost like being young again.

Enjoy each day as it comes.

 

I have no concern about being a parent at 50 or still raising them at 70, so many of us are raising or helping raise our children's children and have done so since the being of time. It is the motive I wish to be sure on not the age or concept of age approprite activity that I am hung up on. As regards to money and property, never had any never likely to, doesn't stop you living and breathing. Money is to be spent on needs, family and whatever makes you happy. This said there is still a thing which is different to us all and apart from us in some way, that makes us get up every morning regardless of the burden or strife. A thing which each of us believe in enough to make it all worth while. For me that was once my son and then my caree, but now, what now? Now I must find a new thing to believe in and I can choose to look upon this as an adventure or as a death of everything I once felt comfort in. What do you think I might choose? The first step is t know that I have a choice that can be simplified in such away, this has helped me. Thank you for your reflections they have dirrected this current line of thought. Cheers from wishbaby