trying to kick methadone/opiates after years, in W/D phase

Hi all,

I first just wanted to say how i would never be as far as i am without all the feedback/anecdotes from all you everywhere, so thank you and i honestly hope god blesses you.

Well i see how everyone starts with their story, to be quick, i have a horribly addictive personality ever since i was young, im 27 now. I got on vic and percs in middleschool and high school, in college i was on to oc's and alot of them. post college grad i work but then got highly addicted to methadone. if i knew more than what my stupid addict friends told me about methadone i would have never started it. i been on methadone for a lil over 2 years and because i was totally hating myself and wasting family money along with a good undergrad degree i tried to kick all opiates cold turky on monday with no benzos, nothing! took my last dose of methadone about 40mg no taper cold turkey. i have no idea how i worked a shift on day 1 of my w/d it was hell on earth and felt like 3 days had past and not just 4 hours.

days1-3 are pure hell if you are a methadone head of longer than even a year trust me, not to be discouraging only trying to be realistic. luckily i had the next 3 days off and called in to work for the whole weekend. My descpription of my mental and psychological state was in some ways worse than the physical pain which is very hard to believe, the sense of hopelessness how i f*****g hated night time. it kinda scared me when it started getting dark i felt like i was about to go on mr toads wild ride instead of get sleep. things that i went through to ease anything, reading the bible helped alot (this whole thing has turned me kinda spiritual, weird), googling thomas recipe for opiate detox was helpful, and just an understanding that my body is screaming out for drugs and it is normal and it will all pass, it all will pass.

for me right now it's almost day 5 since my last dose and i swear to anyone that is going through this now with me there is light at the end of the tunnel stick it out, i know it hurts like hell. f**k it hurts like hell and i dont wish it upon my worst enemy, but trust me there is light on the other side and it's f*****g awesome and i know im only gonna be feeling better. i do highly reccommend googling "thomas recipe for opiate detox" to get all the right vitamins and supplements when u cant move or even think of eating. good luck to anyone in days 1-3 you can make it.

Matthew