I agree with "Guest" who wrote that their Dr. now wants to diagnose them as bi-polor. Same with me --and I also am fighting that dx., as I believe that any slight tendency toward that is definitly caused by the stimulant medication. (Although the Dr. says that anti-depressent meds. can cause a person to become bi-polar)! Wow, what an admission, as well as an "indictment" of the current "state of the art" psychiatric treatment plans!
THIS DRUG IS DANGEROUS as users need more all the time. He's currenlty on 60mg/day, NOT FOCUSING, failing at school, depressed, and barely going through the motions of life.
This is so heartbreaking - no one should be allowed to stay on the drug for a long period of time (7 yrs in this case).
I don't know what to expect for withdrawal..... do they need MORE drugs to get through that as well?????
This subject is VERY HARD to get info on - from the web or from doctors!
okay. I have been addicted to adderall for almost three years now. I have tried to quit before........but the extreme fatigue and depression would cause my willpower to crumble bit by bit.
For those of you who "need" to fuss at others on this site........I do not care to be used to calm your own anxiety by "fussing" at me......as I have seen by other posts previous.
that said, I do get my prescriptions legally and have forced myself to ask her to lower my dosage every two months are so..............knowing that I was going to die if I didnt get a grip on this addiction........either by suicide or by starvation/malnutrition. I was 112 pounds two weeks go.......I am now 140.....AND I HAVE ONLY BEEN ADDERALL FREE FOR 10 DAYS.
Can someone tell me how this is possible and what I should do......I look like a different person.....in only a week and a half. i look pregnant.
I will say this.......yes the withdrawal is bad.......but after a good four days of sleep and rest.......its doable........as each day goes by.........life gets happier, better even.......I was driving down a country road the other day......one i drive every day to get home........and i mentally noted what a beautiful day it was and how pretty the scenery was.............which was a strange thought after three years of adderall......
anyway.......it doesnt matter what I think really............I just need to know if I should be concerned about the sudden weight/edema............or if this too shall pass
ps. oh, and i just had a good laugh as i see i cant post this until i count all the circles in the picture, I have already had to start over three times
To be honest, my wife and I never really felt good about this from the beginning but we knew that without some help my daughter would not sit still long enough to even finish a sentence. We have done loads of research and stumbled upon this life changing website: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ia6OGEj6wW0&feature=related
After we watched in desperation; we took the Adderrall out of the cabinet and tossed it into the garbage disposal. What we have decided to do is simply ride every action like water horse; closely. Yes she is wild! And may seem out of control; she is…but she is ours and ours to control. Ed
All my life I have had extreme organizational and focus issues, i could never finish anything I started, i couldn't remember ANYTHING (or at least keep focus on it) even things that should be habitual like brushing my teeth or bathing. I would constantly loose my books, binders, purses, money. I had to keep things in piles so as to not loose them. The worst part was that I desired so badly to succeed, my mind was so full of ideas but i couldn't make them reality. I would cry at school because no matter how hard i tried my mind would drift away and i would forget what i was supposed to be doing, and no one believed me or understood.
I begged my parents to let me see their psychiatrist, i wanted help, and he had helped my mom so much with managing her bipolar. My dad was extremely skeptical but my mom was encouraging, saying she was so proud of me for knowing there was a problem and asking for help.
I finally had an appointment to see him, he asked me what was wrong and he listened. He was so empathetic. He soothed me saying, how frustrating it must be for you to want to learn and create, when something holds you back from doing it. He was amazed at my ability to focus on artistic things for tremendous periods of time, saying is was "unusual, a special case." I could read a 500 page book in one sitting, and loose myself in my studio for hours but I couldn't remember to feed myself. He speculated that my left brain was so dominant that it was overpowering my right brain at all times. It would give me no chance to listen to a lecture, for my left brain would demand that i draw a picture in the corner of the page instead. I would be haunted at night with ideas for projects racing through my brain, giving me insomnia. He recommended a very small dose, and gave me a week to adjust it myself so that it fit my needs. I ended up taking 10mg in the morning and 5mg at noon.
When I began to take it my life really turned around. I could sleep at night, because ideas were no longer rushing through my head. I could focus at school, and everyone discovered that I was a very intelligent young girl. I stopped losing things (for the most part!), I could put my ideas into action, I could brush my teeth and take care of myself. I stopped getting stress related migraines. I could do everything I had dreamed of doing and learn and create and be a dependable person!
Adderall is clearly not the right medication for everyone. For me it was really the right thing, and it continues to help me.
Best of luck to you all!
The next week after this incident with my friend I switched to 10mg XR, but that wasnt enough. So now I've been on 15mg XR for a couple of years and it seems to have regulated my temper and i dont have the maniac outbursts as much as I used to, and certainly not as severe.
The problem I have is I lost my Health Benefits and was faced with finding an alternative. Luckily for me I did a 3 year stint in the US Army 27 years ago and found out I was eligible for VA Health insurance. The problem is the VA is slow (My 1st Med Eval. is 1/27/09), and does not use Adderall. The dont prescribe it at all. I made sure I "Stocked" up the last day of my old insurance, and I always kept the extras from all the diffrenet dosages I had experimented with. But last week (Christmas Eve) I decided to stop. I figured, if I couldnt get it; why continue. I had skipped a day or two over the last few ytears and experienced what veryone else here has; the depression and almost flu like vegitative state. My wife could always tell when I didnt take my pill. I had always chalked this up to the Adderall not only working on my ADD but also some pretty deep underlying depression. I was almost relieved to find out here its probably been the early withdrawl symptoms of the Adderall all along.
Anyway, I've been off a week now and the headches are intense. Nothing relieves them either. Even as I'm writing this, my head is pounding, and this is after I've taken 3 advil and two tylenol. I hope these headaches end soon.
Another weird thing is my insomnia still hasnt changed. I still get very little sleep. One doctor who specializes in ADD said this is more of a symptom of ADD than the Adderall. I hope it all ends soon though, along with this cloud of depression and unwillingness to do anything. I own a store, work by myself, and am under the gun to pay the bills. I hope this wasnt bad timing on my part.
I'd love to hear if anyone is going thru the same thing with these headaches and if there's another remedy other than time. Thanx for letting me vent.
Things will get better it just a matter of time
I haven't had the time to see if these side effects will go away again or not, nor have I been able to figure out how to deal with them/ pacify them. I'd suggest seeing your primary or any doctor for that matter about what alternatives to adderall might work. I don't know how you'll react, but I had an absolutely terrible reaction to Focalin. Paranoia, irritability, insomnia, anger... just generally felt neurotic that whole week. It was incredibly unpleasant. Just a heads up though. Good luck! I'm on the same journey.
Early age dosage was a 10 XR in the morning
Teen age dosage was a 20 XR in the morning
Currently my dosage is a 30 XR in the morning
How I feel and do on it (workdays):
I feel slightly jittery, no feelings of parnoia, no mood swings, I feel a strong drive to accomplish the task at hand, less distraction from exterior stimuli.
I feel like after i finish my current task I need to find something else to do right away. I chain smoke when on it. I don't regain my appetite till later at night. I can see the broader picture of things. Easily stressed at times. It makes me much more talkative and open with people.
Rarely there have been instances when I try to wake up from a nap and, I find myself in a kind of paralytic state that lasts for a couple of seconds to a minute.
How I feel and do when im off (weekends):
I feel lethargic, I have no drive to do anything productive, I go without smoking completely with no cravings at all. Over-eating is a major issue, I eat even though I know I'm full, I find myself rummaging through the fridge for no reason. I typically dont feel any emotions related to depression, nor mood swings. I find no trouble in getting to sleep. To get myself up off the couch to mow the lawn is a battle.
I have rarely suffered the withdrawl symptoms of those mentioned in other posts.
Note: Hang-overs do not exist for me, trust me i've tried.
The reason might be in the fact that my body, over the many years of adderall use, has come to acclimate itself around the drug. Therefore my habits and behaviour on it are "normal" as opposed to how I am not on it.
In summary: My taking of Adderall from childhood through puberty and into adulthood has possibly altered my personality, tolerance and how my body deals with the drug, and its absence.
I have been on this stuff for so long I truly don't know if that little orange pill is really who I am.