ok from the time i was eleven to 16 ive always been extremely attracted to women, but around 15 and a half i started having gay thoughts and getting aroused by them, but i was still very attracted to them. The thoughts went away for a while, but now there back in full storm. Its been about a week now since a women has turned me on. now, ive read other posts that were just like this, but they said lesbian porn never turned them on, lesbian porn was my favorite type of porn. I dont feel anything emotional towards men, but according to my penis( over the last few days) i am gay.
I have already tried suicide just 1 week into not being able to be turned on by women, so i know if this continues, suicide will be the only option. And i dont hate gays or think theres anything wrong with being gay. And i dont think it would bother me that bad if i was never attracted to women, and i still want to be. People on other forums said it could just be due to stress, which i think is a possibility.
But i really need some reassurance, because until about 2 weeks ago i was going to the gym and playing basketball everyday. this started bad about 2 weeks ago, and I haven't left the house (besides a couple of car rides) since then. I really wanna go play basketball, cause I love basketball, but everytime i get ready to go i get really nervous and start breathing hard, because im nervous of what will happen, even though i have never been turned on by another man in the gym. Thank you for your time and please tell me what you think.
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