Hey guys,
Let me first give you some background. Exactly 8 days ago a bunch of friends and I tried acid for the first time. I was having a great trip until right at the end when I took a huge bong rip and slowly started to freak out. Eventually I thought that my trip was lasting to long, and convinced myself that i had done permanent damage. This snowballed into a full blown panic attack, something I have never experience before.
Anyways, up until 4 days after this I felt like my normal self. I was going to classes, thinking clearly, just being my usual self. However, when working on my philosophy paper 4 days later I started to have yet another anxiety attack. I really started freaking out, because I had no idea what was happening. I went to the hospital a number of times and the doc told me that the LSD did not damage my brain and I was just now experience the underlying anxiety that has been there for probably 5 years now.
Anyways, that was almost 5 days ago and yet I still feel like im going crazy. Even when I do calm down (thanks to the ativan) my brain is still not working at nearly as high of a cognitive level as it was just 5 days ago. I am thinking about things differently, its harder for me to concentrate, weird thoughts pop into my head just all sorts of things that I have never experience before. I really feel like I am going crazy, or if this keeps up that I will go crazy. The doctor told me this is a result of my OCD thinking and the anxiety, but like I said, even when im feeling calm my brain just feels like its working much much slower than normal and sometimes I do feel a bit derealized from everything.
I also (3 days ago) quit smoking weed and drinking alcohol and I was a very heavy and consistent user of both for about about a year an a half now. I dont know if that has anything to do with it but I dunno, im just really freaking out, I just really dont want to become crazy. This has been going on for 4 days now and I have midterms due tomorrow, but I just dont know what to do. Most importantly I just need to start thinking like my normal self again...just for even 1 hour to convince myself im not going crazy and it is just the anxiety.
Thanks for the help guys
Let me first give you some background. Exactly 8 days ago a bunch of friends and I tried acid for the first time. I was having a great trip until right at the end when I took a huge bong rip and slowly started to freak out. Eventually I thought that my trip was lasting to long, and convinced myself that i had done permanent damage. This snowballed into a full blown panic attack, something I have never experience before.
Anyways, up until 4 days after this I felt like my normal self. I was going to classes, thinking clearly, just being my usual self. However, when working on my philosophy paper 4 days later I started to have yet another anxiety attack. I really started freaking out, because I had no idea what was happening. I went to the hospital a number of times and the doc told me that the LSD did not damage my brain and I was just now experience the underlying anxiety that has been there for probably 5 years now.
Anyways, that was almost 5 days ago and yet I still feel like im going crazy. Even when I do calm down (thanks to the ativan) my brain is still not working at nearly as high of a cognitive level as it was just 5 days ago. I am thinking about things differently, its harder for me to concentrate, weird thoughts pop into my head just all sorts of things that I have never experience before. I really feel like I am going crazy, or if this keeps up that I will go crazy. The doctor told me this is a result of my OCD thinking and the anxiety, but like I said, even when im feeling calm my brain just feels like its working much much slower than normal and sometimes I do feel a bit derealized from everything.
I also (3 days ago) quit smoking weed and drinking alcohol and I was a very heavy and consistent user of both for about about a year an a half now. I dont know if that has anything to do with it but I dunno, im just really freaking out, I just really dont want to become crazy. This has been going on for 4 days now and I have midterms due tomorrow, but I just dont know what to do. Most importantly I just need to start thinking like my normal self again...just for even 1 hour to convince myself im not going crazy and it is just the anxiety.
Thanks for the help guys
Sadly now you have gone from a completely harmless drug to an addictive, life ruining one. Quit the psyche meds now. Doctors are hellbent on selling this stuff to the public. You are just suffering normal THC withdrawls.
The acid-head will wear off but the ativan ruined my sister's life and it will hook you on psyche meds for life if you don't cut it loose. Believing doctors will get you no-where but in their pocket. Tell me, if you didn't feel the anxiety before how was it there "underneath it all"?
BS, getting clean is not something you need to take more meds to do. Just stop.
The acid-head will wear off but the ativan ruined my sister's life and it will hook you on psyche meds for life if you don't cut it loose. Believing doctors will get you no-where but in their pocket. Tell me, if you didn't feel the anxiety before how was it there "underneath it all"?
BS, getting clean is not something you need to take more meds to do. Just stop.