In the prior 2 months out of boredom, I began injecting 75mgs of quick release morphine every other day. It was easy to stop that nonsense about 3 weeks ago. Have never like morphine personally.
Methadone's another matter. The nets full of info and lots of it claims methadone is not addictive. BS!
Day 4 or 5 . . . very tired, cannot sleep yet, chills, floating stinky feces. Very weak. Walking dogs major event, craving salt on my food? funky muscle spasms, and on and on.
I'm not craving it one iota. I'm hating it! Morally bankrupt, I lost ages 48-58 to that c**p. I gotta get well, so my wife might get well, so we can save our daughter 26 and already a pillhead.
Thank God no Methadone addiction . . . yet! (well of course we've given her some?)
I've done drugs my entire adult life and never been addicted to anything, but methadone.
Like a thief in the night, Methadone will steal your soul! :cry:
I'm done trading one addiction for another and, should I falter, will stick with the "street drugs" ie:heroin and coke, until I'm dead.
Of course, first I have to go outside, which Methadone has inhibited FOREVER!
Both of my parents died during my addiction. I didn't bother flying home for eithers demise. No need. I had Methadone.
I am morally depleted.
Best of luck with OC detox.
Staying super busy has kept my mind off itself.
I still feel really bad. A good nights' sleep might allow me to actually know how I'm feeling. I've not a clue.
Anyway, this is also the only place I've posted re:opiates, so it looks like it's you and me, Marie55.
To be honest, I have had 2 set backs in the past four days. The exhaustion of methadone wd is so overwhelming that I've used morphine to function at all. (due to foolishly over-loading my schedule with tasks needing doing immediately)
It worked the first time (Thurs PM) but not last night, Saturday. It's allegedly much easier to dump morphine (or any drug I know of) than methadone. I really don't want to trade addictions.
BTW, I am the BIGGEST WUSS in the world, but am determined to escape this brain-fog.
We can do this! It took us years of use to get into this mess. We need to expect it will take weeks/months to escape it's grasp.
Won't it be great to awaken clear and clean?
You hang in there, and I'll try harder. There will always be pills. Walk away for life.
'Methadone will steal your soul! Laughing Twisted Evil Evil or Very Mad Crying or Very sad ' -so true - liquid handcuffs
As for me, I may be feeling a teeny bit better. If I've slept a bit, I can function for several hours before I'm overcome w/fatigue again. This exhaustion, teamed w/the inability to get much restful sleep, is the worse of it thus far, at day 10-11-12? I still don't wanna use any methadone, not xanax, but there's morphine around and I have stumbled there when I feel I can't function and must. Also, I'm pretty sure I need to drink more water, but this effort doesn't seem to make one thirsty at all and it's hard to force it down.
I'm finding there seems to be a wall one must break through to be successful. This wall appears about 36 hours after using an opiate, when I find myself too weak to move, but too sick to sleep more than an hour or two. That sucks!
Liquid handcuffs, I like that. Face it, some unaware doctor got ya hooked on the worst substance I've ever foolishly played with. It takes from 2 weeks to 6 months, depending on dosage and determination.
You can do it. It is recommended one have someone around the first week or two to do the stuff needing doing, 'cuz you aren't going to be able to w/o a bunch of effort. You'll hate how you feel. Try and place that hate where it belongs . . . on the drug.
I'm pretty sure we all just want our souls back.
Everyone hang tough . . . clean yourself and feel again. Life's just not worth it living in a cloudy haze. Opiates don't kill the pain. Opiates make it so you don't care about the pain, or anything else, really.
It's time to feel human.
MrFishy... stay away from the other "relief". It's the devil. I'm on day 11... I think??? Of no methadone . . . Best of luck...
I'm trying to curb the relief, but it's always around and I have zero support system. The only one here, besides myself, is addicted to methadone, morphine, and xanax, by script. I've reached out, but no ones' there to help. All the folks I've leaned on are addicted to one thing or another, and I don't know anyone else. I keep signing on to see if anyone I've leaned on has written me an email. Zero last 3 days.
"Hang in there" and "Good job" are pretty meaningless coming from addicts. Today I feel like I'm stuck in a big, deep, dark hole, from which there is only one escape. I might succeed if I could get out of here, but I'm too sick to make the effort alone.
I have faltered majorly in the past few days, but no methadone, nor xanax. I plan on stopping this other nonsense today, Monday, Feb.1.
You hang in there, and I will get real again now.
You are far from alone in this difficult mission.
After flippin' and floppin' (thrashing) all night long for nights on end, I've realized that I've probably been addicted to one thing or another since I was maybe 17. What a waste of the gift of precious life. I'm thinkin' a week or two of misery is deserved for a lifetime of self-neglect.
Marie and others, it's extremely hard and takes all your will power to suffer thru this c**p.
What did we expect. Remember, it's only too late once, and if not now, when?
I did begin taking .5 xanax before bed and have managed to get 6-7 hours of decent (but probably not restorative) sleep the past week. I'm in a medical marijuana state and find using this helpful in reducing stress and calming the minds' thoughts so I can get to sleep in the first place.
I find myself impatient to feel better, but have zero craving for any narcotics, which is HUGE. Having just gone thru the most awful 6-7 all but sleepless weeks of my life, I suppose it's normal to want to magically feel better once the toxins/opiates have left your body, but it's become obvious that this is going to be an uphill climb for a while yet.
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