day 1...opiate detox

Hi there
You should be proud of yourself. I know how difficult is coming off opiates and 34 days is a real achievement. So you still smoke cannabis but I guess it prob isn't as nasty as opiates. I would never judge anyone we all live this life as best we can. Opiates make you feel so lethargic which is why you turned to caffeine, get an energy boost. Still keep drinking lots of energy those opiates are still lurking in your muscles ect and will release slowly over coming year. I bet you are already feeling more animated and alive. I am not religious but if it gives you strength then that's great. Keep fighting the good fight!

Well i made it 51 days..that was about 12 days ago...i slipped up and did a few..went about 4 days doin a couple each day..that was last wed-sun...now im on day 5 without again...i went through absolutely no withdrawals tho..which was great..i was a bit nervous..but i guess the fact that i went almost 2 months without..i think my system was pretty clean..im not happy that i relapsed a bit..but im not gonna beat myself up over it either..i dont know of anyone that has ever quit something that was bad for them the first try..i just need to be more vigilent and try,try again..

keep on tellin urself just what u r saying carry a pic of ur kids and whn things get rough look at it remember Love conquers all i took vics graduated to 10s then 30s did that fr over 10 years been off 4 weeks still a struggl but feel great and have more money in my pocket i was doing a &$100 plus a day

Well is about the end of july...unfortunately i been off the wagon so to say..wasnt like it used to be..but i have been using narcos on and off for about a month..almost everyday..took a couple days break bout a week ago...but this last week..its almost like i never quit..i turn 39 in about 10 days..dont wanna start another year of my life with this dependency..i have a great life..wife and kids that i couldnt be more proud of..yet i have this yearning to always wanna be slightly intoxicated..never full on "out of it"..but just a touch of being "high" is what i always want..im not sure when this started in my life..thats what i have to figure out..

Well it is sept 4th...im on 2nd day of opiate free...let me be the first to tell anybody that once you quit for a while...you absolutely cannot just do 1 or 2 and think that you wont fall right back into yur old habits...i went from may 16-july 5 without any type of opiates...got my script on the 5th of july..kept 10 perc 5's...and got rid of the rest...figured wouldnt be a bad thing to just do a couple...boy was i wrong...those 2...turned into another 2 months of heavy abuse...by a week or two later...i was back up to 50-60 mgs a day..right where i used to be...now i have to go through all the withdrawals again...not as bad this time..but still shitty just the same...why do we do these things to ourselves..when we know the outcome is gonna be bad....

Im currently on day 4 of once again being opiate free..i dont frll too bad today..i deffinetly thank God for that..it is friday and i took my last 10 mgs of oxycodone mon night...tues was bad, sniffles,coughing,restless legs,sweaty,didnt sleep for nothin tues night...wed wasnt too bad..just no energy what so ever..thurs..the same..no energy..i have, since tues morning, been takin loperamide,a mutlivitamin, and lots of water..this is really only my second time of withdrawing from opiates..i mean i have gone a day here and there..but earlier this summer i quit for 53 days..then relapsed..thought i could do just a couple..then that turned into 2 months of everyday use..usually between 30mgs-60mgs a day of vicodin,perocet use...whatever i could buy off the streets...i am just disgusted with myself over the whole thing..i have lied to loved ones,stole things,etc..i was raised better than that..but this addiction turns people into something they r not..i feel much better today than the last 3..and i know each day will improve..i just need to be more aware of P.A.W.S....its the mental part than i need to better prepared for..anyone that may read my posts..please say a prayer for me.

Hey,
Don't beat yourself up so o.k you have fallen but you have found the strength to get back up dust yourself down and start again. You are human and we all have weaknesses and struggles. P.A.W.S is a nightmare and is what makes most people fail. You need to realise that your mind will do anything to convince you to take opiates. It will make you think you just can't have a life without them, that you need them to be fulfilled. At the moment you believe that to be true, it is just a thought not a fact. You can win this fight is you stay really focused and positive, when those voices in your head drive you mad like I said before distract yourself any way you can. It passes and the voice becomes weaker and weaker with time as you become stronger and stronger.

well done usblues,you have done amazing,i am 3 months clean from methadone i have a 16 year addiction and am about to try again to kick the heroin,low energy and poor sleep is usual,try and stay positive and keep it up, but very well done,keeping it a secret is one of the hardest and soul destroying things, i was completely clean for 18 months but slipped back nearly 2yrs ago my lover is also addicted to meth and H and she cant tell anyone apart from me and our supplyers no one else knows, im going away tomoz for a week or two to get clean and am very determind again this time,i will do it to lead by example for our love and her daughter,best of luck

You're doing great. Keep us posted. I'm trying it as soon as my last refill is done. Plan to use the loperamide. The PAWS scares me. Is PAWS a fleeting feeling or does it go on endlessly all day, just like being back to square one? I have quit before but never got that far. I'm determined to get these out of my life.

Praying for you and cheering you on!

hi there,

Thankyou for your kind words and encouragement. It has been a hard journey there's no denying that full of ups and downs but i am determined there is no going back felt so ill and dead inside. You do not say what you have been taking or for how long or how many you were taking. I never took over the limit so for people who do abuse the drug i am guessing the withdrawals are worse. as for P.A.W.S which stands for post acute withdrawal syndrome look on the internet there is so much info out there. I hope you can quit the drug which is prob taking over your life and making you feel awful, it will be far from easy but you can if you are really determined!