I am afraid of dentist. What's new you ask. I know that millions people around the world are afraid of going to the dentist or to the doctor. But this is not an ordinary fear. It is real phobia. When I have to go to the dentist I sweat, my heart pounds, I have diarrhea, sometimes I vomit. It is stronger then me. How to fight this?
I know that we guys should be fearless and brave, but it is not true. We are just human beings with fears, needs and desires. What I am trying to tell is that if you need help it is not shame to ask for it. As I can see you have developed rather serious condition and it can be resolved only by experts help. Also there are some movies about how to override fear of the dentist. It is on the net I cant remember the address but try to find it.