I’m slightly confused, you recovered and then felt like this again?
that was just plain anxiety/OCD i had that was triggered by my fear of abandonment.. And then i went on birth control November 2015 and in January 2016 I got more RELATIONSHIP OCD .. the fear of randomly questioning everything and wanting to break up .. So i got off brith control and read up on Mindfulness and was like k i dont want to live like this. Then i felt better. Then in September 2017 On birth control AGAIN, triggered by a stressful life change and getting off birth control its like ALL THESE SYMPTOMS CAME BACK 100x WORSE THEN EVER. Now im off 3 months and will NEVER go on AGAIN. But I have always struggled with anxiety/OCD so mine was kickstarted by getting off birth control and stressful changes in my life.
So you felt like this on birth control as well? If so, so did I. I thought getting off would make it better but that wasn’t the case.
Yup, I knew i always had Anxiety/OCD .. I thought birth control would make it better obvisouly i was wrong.. but i didn't experience this while on it forever.. I think it kickstarted some problems and made me more emotional then EVER. It obvisouly did f**k with me hormonally.. Because i do feel better after each period.
It’s just really sad because when I think about it I reallly don’t want to break up with him. These past couple of days my brain has been telling me I’m not interested in him anymore but I know my feels will come back bc this happens on and off. I’m hanging in and holding on
I think it might be because I’m supposed to start ovulating tomorrow that I feel this way
I just worry that im aways gona feel like this in some shape or form. Like it has tarnished my relationship forever :-( we had been tryin for a baby but now i feel scared to get pregnant not only cos of the hormonal aspect but also because this has affected my relationship so much. This is the hardest thing iv ever had to deal with :-(
I am sitting here on my floor crying. I cry everyday now over something. I have been off the pill now 2 months after being on it for almost 14 years straight. I googled crying after stopping the pill and came here. I have some peace reading all of your experiences but then you have to close the website and deal with real life and then I just cry. I don’t know how to handle this anymore.
Yup of you read old posts you will realize everything you going through, ALL the girls have been through! It's such a terrible experience I remember month 2 being THE WORST. 3rd month and my 3rd period coming after stopping the pill and I feel tremendously better.. depression has lifted..anxiety has stopped (thank you God).. ROCD thoughts are starting to quiet down.. Each period it feels so much better!! If you go back a few pages I make like a list of 7 things I did and what my therapist taught me. You are not alone
Yup we were all there at two months my 3rd month it calmed a bit my 4th I was a mess before and during my cycle and this 5th month has been pretty smooth in the crying department! I just want to illustrate that there will be setbacks but do not be discouraged! We are all here for each other!
Setbacks are the worse .. I remember I didn't understand them I was like "but I thought I was doing better" and that is what probably put me into depression.. but wow yeah about 4-5 setbacks (for me) before you can start focusing on getting better.. what a long ride. Next year this time I hope I can look back and just help anybody going through this
When you feel better when do your set backs normally come on ?what symtoms do you still have ?
Before my when I thought I was doing "better" it would last a few days and then the anxiety/OCD would come and would last FOR WEEKS so the bad outweighed the good. And before my period I get a little irritated (normal). And the symptoms I still have are very very light OCD thoughts, barely none.. I don't know what my technique is except time/therapist and just embracing the thoughts and not fighting them.
How long have you been off?has the love came back?
3 months about to get my 3rd period.. and yes the love has come back, it is always in there deep down, don't ever think that your love has disappeared it's just temporarily tainted. yes I love him especially cause it's my grandmothers funeral and he showed respect to my parents and he's just an overall good guy, I honesty can't do better. I know when I got a good one. And yes I used to even have thoughts of "oh what if there's someone better out there"