So frustrating! It’s been 9 months so I’m getting annoyed. This might sound corny and dumb but my birthday was a few weeks ago and when I blew out the candles my wish was to feel better about my relationship and just live happily and after my birthday I was fine and “happy” up until a couple of days ago. I just want this to all go away
This forum has been so helpful for me for the past 3 days I have been reading all the stories of women who were victimized by birth control pills. I'm 35 years old.
I hope i found this thread a month ago when i thought I was losing my mind and convinced myself I am gonna die from all the things I have been feeling.
I stopped taking the pill Nov 15 2017 because taking it causes me heart palpitations. A week after stopping I was feeling weak but I was able to manage it. 2nd week I was also ok although i know I am not my 100%. Then came the 3rd week I was at work and experienced panic attack. Racing heartbeat, feeling hot, sweaty palms, shaking feeling like im gonna pass out.. i left work right away and went home. From that point everything just went bad. The physical symptoms i was feeling worried me to the point i became a hypochondriac.
Here are the physical symptoms i felt:
1. Body feels tired (worse in the morning)
2. Muscles all over my body feels weak
3. Pressure on my head (left side) sometimes i feel like my brain is moving inside
4. Nausea
5.crying spells
6. Loss of appetite
7. No energy
8. Feeling like im gonna pass out
I'm not sure if these physical symptoms are brought on by the anxiety or stopping the bcp. But its so hard to deal with. I have read here you wouldnt wish it on your worst enemy and it is so true. This is the hardest thing I have to deal with yet.
At first i didnt understand what was happening to me - i went to 3 doctors and all said I was normal from the blood tests, ecg and physical checks they did. I was prescribed Inderal 10mg but that didnt help - made me weaker and tool away my appetite.
I was losing hope of getting an answer for what i have been feeling. I dont understand. I barely recognize myself anymore. I was such a happy outgoing person and then with no warning i turned into a complete opposite.
3 days ago I stumbled upon this thread while i was looking for things abt anxiety and I thank the Lord i was able to do so. Reading all your entries made me realize it must be the pill. Alll these happened after i stopped taking them.
I'm on my 1st month and a half off the pill now - there are more bad days and there were a couple of good ones. It is usually worse in the morning when i wake up - maybe because i overthink too. I keep on thinking this is another day of struggle but i realized thats just so negative to start my day with. Sometimes you cant avoid to feel this way. I was traumatized by the way i feel. 5 days ago I experienced one of the bad days and that was also christmas time. My body was so weak and while i was sleeping i was awakened my this feeling of doom. Like my muscles are tingling and even my brain inside my head.
I pray that my body will be able to adjust soon because i missed a month of work already..
Im just thankful that I can eat a lil bit now and i can sleep 6 hours now.
I learned so much from my experience - change my lifestyle into a healthier one. I have a checkup with my OB later and I am hopeful she can give me more options to make this journey a lil easier to handle.
We are stronger than this and this too shall pass.
Sometimes It's hard to take my mind off it when I feel the debilitating physical symptoms.. I'm taking Iron with Folic Acid, Vitamin C, Vitamin b1,b6,b12..
I also suffer from anxiety when I'm out of the house. Panic attack kicks in when im in a crowded place.. all i can think about is im gonna pass out. I used to be socially active.
Its so hard that sometimes I don't recognize myself anymore.
Definitely go for walks during the day, do little things even if your body doesnt want to get up.
I do suggest though staying in your comfort zone for the first two months, like if your bedroom is your comfort zone just let yourself chill for a bit. When you are ready you will get up and start to go out.
You say you suffer from being in crowded places, thats totally understandable! Which is why maybe you should not force yourself to go places you dont have to RIGHT NOW.
You WILL NOT always be like this, time heals ALL. Each period you will feel so much better. Take your vitamins, and wait for the next period. But don't psychologically trick yourself into reminding yourself that each period anxiety will start to come again once its over.. Try your hardest to greet the thoughts and be aware but let them go.