Same here. I've always wanted to be a mother. Another reason I will not have sex is that I would not be able to handle being pregnant right now - I don't want to feel like this if I get pregnant. I wouldn't want that dream stolen from me too - like finding out and being genuinely happy, announcing it to family, picking out clothes and decorating the nursery and such. Sometimes I get down about how I feel like I missed the day I got the house, or the day we got engaged because I didn't feel like myself when it happened. My fiancé proposed in front of family and someone commented on how they were surprised I didn't cry in excitement, and that made me feel so bad because I felt weird that I couldn't be excited like I should've, and I wanted to be and I new I was but I just didn't feel it?? I get worried about things changing too much between before I got off the pill and getting off the pill, because I don't want to look back and miss my whole life. I will say that the panic and anxiety attacks are gone, things have gotten better. I just wish I had zest for life and all of my dreams again. This isn't you, just know that your dream is still your dream it's just stupid hormones, ugh.
Im exactly the same. Like today i was feeling quite good an then someone is work was nasty to me and it jus knocked me right back an made me start thinking of everything again an then i came home an accused my husband of somethin stupid an it caused a row :-( all because i jus feel so paranoid an insecure cos of this :-(