Yeah. I can't really get past the feeling too. Boyfriend is such a great guy but like all of these stupid thoughts showed up. For me, I had one day out of the blue where I questioned if I found him attractive , then I fell into a slippery slope of like all these doubts and fears and his flaws when I never thought them before. And because I focus on the negative I feel like I can't feel the in love feeling, or at least see him in a different light than what I do now.
My anxiety and depression caused me to get like a crazy rash all over my hands, kinda like eczema. My hands are literally cut up because they itch so much now, all because of this. I feel like I am more functional now, but I feel like my body is going through so many changes.
I started feeling like this while on the pill so it bothers me so much that I still feel like this. Yes! I question his attractiveness as well and I can’t get past it! As much as I try to think these things don’t matter and have never bothered me they still pop into my head and bother me a lot when we are together. I feel so bad because he’s honestly such a good boyfriend. The anxiety used to keep me from eating and getting out of bed so I am much better now. I definitely can live more of a normal life and I realized these thoughts are sometimes worse than other times.
It used to keep me from functioning too. I feel the same way, things that never mattered seem to matter. It is so bizarre. I feel like depression is still there, but just very low level. We will get better. We are lucky to have boyfriends that stay with us despite all of this. Many would kill to have someone so supportive in their life.
The numbness could definitely be associated with the pill. I started to get sciatica right before I got off the pill and ever since then it has gotten worse. Sometimes when I sit long like when I'm in a meeting or something I get up and my calf turns numb.. this started happening post pill.