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Morning Everyone!, Georgia my mom is doing good! My life has become very busy and hectic. I have been trying to get on here for awhile. I'm lucky to get online to work lately. This has been an interesting month(prob no coincidence that I'm here on my best friend who passed Birthday). Georgia the synchronicity in things well in life really creep me out. I have a couple strange stories to tell you about. Idk, I'm doing good gaining weight, eating right. I think of ya'll alot and am really going to try getting on here more. Georgia how is it down there? We got hit with two huge storms. One that left us with no power for 3 days. GENERATOR, I will never go without one!!!! Well, just wanted to say hi and see how everyone is.
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I read these a lot...I am sure this will be read ocne twice? well heres my story...
I started on oxy's long time ago, got hooked quick. I had my first police charge after I stole Ipod touchs from the storie I worked at...right when they came out; to support my habbit. soon after, i lost my oxy connect, tried Heroin instead, loved it...my first time I threw up the next morning, did a bump to feel better. next thing I know I am shooting it. I was a str8 junkie, I stole from my own mother, my f*****g mother...along with anyone I could get one over on...I picked up 4 felonies, and 30 days jail. I cleaned up, I got 2 jobs both full time, 60+ hr a week, I am 26 working at tacobell and a cardealership...jobs for 16 yr olds...but I had to do what I could. getting clean this time was easy? as I had NO CHOICE! But after being "clean" 2 years...Id drink occasionaly and maybe smoke a joint every so often.....I met a beautiful girl 5+ yrs my younger, smart, so beautiful, smart, and accomplished for her age, I fell for her, she fell for me. She is good for me, she makes me be stronger then I could on my own, keeps me accountable for everything...She is my world. I had a probation violation, I had to do 100 days jail, NBD rlly...but this girl was there every visit, answered every call, and made sure I had money and phone time NP.
Well I slipped up, I started using Poppy seed tea, and I mean daily. So I found myself a job roofing in other states...first trip was on monday, sunday morning I had a good dose, which lasts easily 24 hrs before any WD takes hold...so monday morning we leave, I know its going to be tough, we have a 20 HR drive ahead. But luckily the guys I was riding with were pot heads, They smoked me up the whole time...which def helped. We arrive tuesday, I smoke, drink a few beers, pass out, but wake up Early as hell anxiety through the roof!! watery eyes, just no motivation, I would say a 7 on 1-10 scale od WD...Ive done cold turkey IV H before..Wed, we work till 11AM, I walk, no lie 2.5 miles to a grocery store, and TRY to make some tea, well It def cured my WD's til thursday night...at this point my WD's r just anxiety, fidgity, cold chills, and just tired depressed...I chug half a bottle of nightquil, take 4 shots of Tanquery, smoke some weed, took Tylenol PM, and alteril? and slept ok after rolling around for an hr +...friday we worked HARD for 10 hrs, I was just tired and unmotivated, but a couple one hitter's of bud helped my mood...but not motivation.Friday night I smoke, drink some nyquil, and take a cpl shots along with the Tylenol PM, aka diphenhydramine, again finally pass out, sat we work till 11...WD's are gone cept for anxiety...I suck it up, sunday I go nuts cuz we dont work, stuck in a hotel...I drink some n smoke some, it helps...Sunday night was DEF easier then any other...Monday rain day, no work...I take a trip to a few grocery stores, and make what I hope is a decent batch, Ill see.
Heres what I will say, Honestly WD's are a f**k! and suck, I find what helps....TAPER! taper down as slow as u can...ALEVE, energy drinks, GO TO WHERE YOU CANNOT NO MATTER WHAT FIND A HOOKUP! Support, dont sit alone...TRY to go out with friends, Weed helps me, it helped a ton...drinking takes the edge off...do not over due it. nyquil Benedryl, A POSITIVE Attitude! this helps a ton, IT IS TEMPORARY!, HORRIBLE BUT NOT FOREVER>>>>Gets better then better then better...I am doing this for my love, I am going to finish this for her....I think after today I should feel NO WD's. WoW this got long....Buncah BS if u ask me, but its MY story, and honestly....just a very, VERY small part of it. I wish you ALL the best, its not easy, but it is worth it...YOU CAN DO IT<>ITS ONLY TEMPORARY<>MAN/WOMAN UP!! ;)
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