I very nearly 13 and I'm going on holiday in 7 weeks. I am 9 st 3 lbs and I've never really been skinny in my life. I am very self-conscious and don't like the way I look, however I like food a lot and I can't seem to stick to a really healthy diet as I never see a difference and give up after like a week. People at my school are so much skinnier and they get to wear whatever they want when I have to try everything on to make sure it fits as I don't have a flat stomach.  I've tried running in the past, but I really dislike it, I have anxiety so I won't join a club and I'd rather do a sport using power like long jump/shot put, but that doesn't burn calories and I'm losing hope. My parents said I should try not to snack, and do exercise as much as possible, but if I'm always hungry and I need to not snack for the rest of my life then that'll just be torture and I will 100% give up. I don't like praise and I feel if I were to exercise my parents/ other people would praise me and I don't want to put myself in that situation. I know I'm not meant to be skinny as it is in my genes, but I want to be able to wear a bikini and look good and not obese. I would eat healthy snacks, but usually I would rather not eat at all then do that. I know I'm being difficult, and I know there is very little people can do to help me, but I don't want to keep going through life really unhappy and insecure.    Please, if you have any help at all, let me know. x