I am in a mess. anxiety or not?

I;m a headbanger - honest! - SEE I think your mom had another daughter and gave her up for adoption!!! LOL Ask her if she ever went to Yorkshire in 1964!!!! LOL

Anyway I want to lift your spirits so I will tell you some funny weird things that have happened to me - it will give you a laugh and a chance to breath anyway!

When I met my husband he had hair down his back, NOW he has hair ALL over it!!!!! When I met my husband I had hair down to my hips now my breasts are! ;-) XD

I have been attacked by the following animals - hand on heart - Dogs, Cats, A lion Cub, 2 Girraffes, 1 horse, Been pooped on by birds more than I can count, a BEAVER, a Bat, Insects, Fish, and a Circus Elephant tried to get amourous with me!!!!! I have that affect on animals! One day I was watching my boys and my friends son, play on a swing set - when we were camping together - I leant my head against a wooden pole! And I saw this weird bug waddling towards me, I kept watching it with the one eye closes to the wood and I kept thinking "When is this thing going to realize I'm here?!" It got to my nose, lifted it's leg and PEEED!!!!! Right on my nose! A little drop of bug pee!!!!!! I couldn't believe it, I went back to the camp site, told everyone there! My Girlfriend said "NO WAY!" I looked at here with disbelief and said "As IF I would make that up" I had my hands streched out in a moment of disbelief, and the SECOND I said that too her a bird dropped some poo right on the palm of my right hand!!!!!!! I swear TOO GOD!!!!

I was run over by a bus and when I married my husband - 6 weeks after - he blew up our downtown by hitting a live electrical wire! I was working in a 23 story building and was in the elevator when the electricity blew! I KNEW right away that it was him! When we were finally released, I went home and he was drinking a beer - which he doesn't drink - he was as white as a ghost and I said "OH LOVEY!!!!!" He replied "OH BOOBY!!!!!!!!" o.O o.O o.O XD XD I couldn't believe that my bad luck had gone onto him!

To prove I was and am a Head Banger - our wedding song was "Animal" by Def Leoppard!!! Honest!!!

XD XD XD XD XD

Okay, Okay= You reminded me about yesterday-my frined and I ran through the school car park-over a wall and got stuck in some fencing. I got stuck on a wall-meantime some mad teacher was falling behind. My friend Jazcquelie helped me free :-D ) Thats no joke!_

Oh- on a more :$ serious note, im this :-) :$ because I lost my cv inleith and its my house address and face on it ) argh!) It fell out my handbag!

ERm- my mum would only have b33n 13 in 1964!

Hmm-still not done any work for school!

you guys make me laugh so hard!!! i too have been pooped on one too many times by birds! and when i was young, got stuck on a fence and ripped my pants after being chased by a dog...not cool!!

and 13 year olds can have babies, which would make sense as to why dawn would have been put up for adoption! XD

question!! how did you get run over by a bus!!?

Ive done that so many times, ripped my trousers up the bnum on barred wired fencing, and had to walk for miles before getting home.

Okay....yeah Guest-Dawn, how did you get runover by a bus?

I really do think bus drivers have to pass a moronic test before geting the job( No offence to any bus drivers out there!) But I was getting of a bus, with a 4 year old and a tiny 2 year old, buggiwes shopping and yes, myself ( the hardest part) Anyway, I held my 2 year olds hand as I had so much shopping. Normally I would have carried her, . I got the 4 year old of the bus, throw the buggie out the bus ( as you do when no one can be bothered helping , and stepped of the bus holding my toddlers hand. Right the bus driver hadnt seen my Becca, and the bus driver started to pull away ( iwas still holding beccas hand and my 4 yr old ( alex ) was left abandoned outside the bus stop whilst I ran about 30 mph down the road, screaming for my girl and so was the entire bus ! Anyways, the bus driver stopped, shouted "SORRY!", i GRABBED bECA, BY THIS TIME TEARS WERE STREMING DOWN MY FACE AND i WAS SHAKING FOR HER VERY OWN LIFE. sHE HADNT GOT A CLUE ..I lifted her up-she was absolutely fine, not a scratch on her, I cudddled her so tight and Alex also cuddled her tight and Alex stood by me shaking too-I dont think she could believe it either. That was an incidencew here the girls had been babysat by his mum and I had had to collect them from her flat....Mad!

OKay-what is this?????More distraction-sh*t I have to study...Mums coming over and I shall ask her Dawn "Did you go nHoliday to Yorkshire in 1964?"

Yes my friends alsation tried it on with me, and as I was having a sleepover at her house, they had to lock the dog out and it pinned outside the door the entire night. Perhaps the olly make that ever truly loved me...But you never know , maybe he was an incarcanation of someone who knew me.

Is it true that birds like to poop on light shaded clothing, like white jackets, beige , light denim...I heard that as a fact-dont know if its true...Must go.I better do some work! Take care!

Oh Hell, Ive that choking ( I cant breathe thing ) again .Its like im choking on my tongue-what if I have a fit during my exam? :$

From what Ive just read, I wouldnt be surprised if my gran had had Diassociatuve Identity disorder rather than schizophrenia. From what my dad describes its a more fitting label( god I hate lables) Anyway, My right arm under my oxster has gone all tender again and theres definatlley something going on . And, Ive just ( oh dear ) had my period) Sorry too much information -but what is going on?

Dissociative personality disorder is brilliant, i might start using that. and the doctor can say no no it wasnt Katy that murdred so and so it was wendy or jo that comes out all evil duting the night(I shouldnt joke) But I would have to have Did to be able to do that kind of thing anyway. Its too nice to be stuck indoors.!

Alex is still in pain so thinking that this may wel be a fracture.If shes not any better tomorrow Ive to take her bakc to the hospital. I think im goping to have to pull an all nighter for this exam then! Argh!

WELL, Dawn you had me laughing like a looney all the way to the school thinking about the insect that peed on your nose and then in astonishment catchin gthe birds poop in your hand -Thats so somehting that would happen to me.

When I was little I saved up for months to get a denim jacket that Id wanted for ages.
We went on a long car journey to montrose and my felt tips leaked all over the car seats, my jackert and me..I got my arse skelped, and mum was really upset with me. anyway, I didnt know Id leaked ink all over my jacket until we were out walking my mums friends dogs, and worse it had been red ik all over the back bottom end of my jacket-so it looked like you know what - youcouldnt get enough vanish on it!

THERES DEFINATELY SOMETHIGN IN MY OXSTER! oH WELL, IM GOING TO TAKE LOADS OF EVENING PRIMOROSE OILS SEE IF THAT WILL HELP IT!

OmG- I think im not going to pass! Ive just printed a mass a big thick binder worths of paper on the one subject-DEPRESSION...Do I have to read the Nhs curriculum stuff-this is a nightmare! Ive not even startedsorry I am away to lock myself in the lou and swear1

People say that a bird pooping on you is good luck! I say "It's good luck for the people that AREN'T pooped on!" You have to give me some leaway when I am telling a story OK?

We had to take a school bus and if we missed it had to catch a local transit bus! So one VERY VERY cold morning (foreshadowing) I missed my School bus, so I got a transit bus that took me to downtown then I had to transfer to another bus to get to high school! It was VERY hot on the 1st bus (foreshadowing) so I undid my snow boot laces (foreshadowing( then I got off the bus, and didn't realize they were undone! I had am arm full of books(foreshadowing( so I turned the corner and saw the second bus comring around the corner, so I started running, shouting at the people to stop the bus! They were ALL pencil necks (Business people) and they didn't tell the driver to wait! I TRIPPED and went flying and sliding on the ice (ON mY FRONT) and RIGHT under the bus! The bus took off - without anyone telling him I was under it! and the flaps hit me on the head!!!! I was COVERED in blooed from the gravel, my purse was run over and ALL of my books! I sat there shaking and a bunch of construction workers came over to help me! Saying things like "Holy S**t! RU Ok Honey?" o.O So as I was sitting there, people were swerving and HONKING at me to get off the road!!!! So the construction workers picked up my purse and ALL my papers and got me on the next bus! My jeans were ripped open - fromt he gravel and I had gravel in my face!!!!! So I get to school - late of coure - I walked into my Chemistry lesson and everyone was looking like this o.O o.O o.O o.O :O So my teacher came up to me and said "Dawn! Do you have your homework from last night?" I replied "I was run over by a bus!" he replied "Do you want me to phone your parents?" I nodded and it took the hospital about 3 hours to pick out the gravel!

Oh Wow! Thats amazing! But it must havve ben scary.

Ove been knocked down 3xs too. It was the best way to get off PE! Ive bounced over 2 bonets and dented a car. I never got taken to hospital because I was too busy spewing to tell anyone what had happened-then my head started to spin around! But unlike you ive not been under any vehicle as of yet-only inhumane ones!

This is a MESS! Theres too ,uch reading and I cant read-DAWN HOW MUCH do you want to sit my exam????/ You could do it with oyur eyes shut! Me-I get bamzoogled by names!

BREATHE!!!!!! I got through highschool with my enormous breasts - PERIOD!!!! ;-) XD XD Hi Had Dave Hartmen do my homework, and a guy called Mike who would tap out the multiple choice question answers! 1 tap for A, 2 taps for B, 3 taps for C! I COULD write your test, is your teacher Male? If a woman she HAS to be a Lesbian - or I WILL fail for you!!!!! ;-) XD XD XD You CAN do this Katy, just calm down! Do you know there is a lot of people that say chewing spicey cinammon gum helps you study! RELAX! I know this is hard - but one thing at a time, one question at a time etc! Don't start thinking you are going to fail OK? Or as my buddy Dean said "I smoke a joint before tests, it helps me do better!" thus him working at Home Depot in the Garden centre!! When he was supposed to be teacher, I don't think it was the dope though! ;-) 8-| XD

I cant relax! Alexs wrist is really hurting her! gave her her medicine and bathed it in cold water-but shes really upset. the younger one is acting up for attention, eanwhile i cant remeber what the hell skinner said, or did or Bandura nevermind bloody seligmans theory or Becks theory. ive 200 and odd pages to read before I start for one question-shhheit!

Hey- if a questioncomes up on panic , ive my own theory! But god know I cant breathe-what the hell am I doinf and my mum sjust paid al this money and ive to pay her back-how did I do it before-I cant remeber! Oh I reneber an all nighter and a bottle of gin. Irs ewally unfair as I sat this exam 12 years ago( same subject) so youd trhink id remember-but I only rmember my subjects PtSD, DSM and something vague!

The lollipop man asked today "are you feeling allright"t He watched me gag on my tongue 3xs/

Mum came round and was good-but I couldnt relax! Its not the smae as before, before your lecture notes could get you through if you had a brain cell. Mybe I dont have my brain cell anymore! A fellow student really helped me today. There was no way I would have found those journals in time with all this going on! Just have to read them now. Im going to take tones of teddies and surround myself so no ne can see me. god Ive forgotten how stressful exams are! I can see myself throwing up about it shorlty I usually do ! On monday I have to leave at 1040 after taking them to school re read notes and then chizzle whatever I know out. Please god make it an easy paper! I cant distinguish the differnece ebtween learned helplessness and cognitive dysfunction. Nope okay I can One carries over a longer spam of time, so making it harde to recover- do you think this true? Im not so sure. I need to read it properly what am I doing?

Hey Dawn If you can survive being run over by a bus - I can survive this. i can I can I can and I will ) sorry- but this is harder than I remeber!)

Okay go ahead and right my test! what do you mean , if a lesbian shell fail me??? haha-thats funny for all the men that fancy her- I allready know a few! I wonder if your female and a lesbian if you are more attractive to men ( forbidden fruits and all that) I know I always find gays really attracive-and then they tell you"Im gay''Or are they making excuses up because they dont want to be near me?

Okay- Ive an idea.theory is theory, Theory is for Thatcherites.Theory really cannot handle individulaity -and yes ill study it-but who cares- we ARE ALL DIFFERENT- so this thing aboutlabelling and monoplising and trying to nderstand individulas under a name is very very wong! yes-there are comonolities- but forfuck ske we are all different. One woman could be attaqcked and use it as a tool for her godliness-another woman could be attacked and use it as shame on them. I cant be bothered withtheory , practice, yes-because I think if someone has said im doing this balh blha blha , I know iits wrong-but I cant deal withit- I dontknow how to. basically thats what the heroine addicts di- its what ido. I hate thoery-ive been looking, these cognitive practises- wellwhat if youve beeen hated by your mother all your life- yet you love her-but feel ttota; rejection9 cause you were never good enough) what if you feel taht and your mum is your furst relationship?

I cant talk to my mum properly abour how i feel! her life is surrounded by material success = but iget that too! I understand that! But I want be doing it to my childrne though i know theryr damge in a clever way. Or do I? mnot so sure! Anyway-I do know theylove me and I love them and thats all i can get at the mom?

Hey fawn-Just recovering from some sort of fit-okay but it webt in for a while- I couldnt stop shking