I feel as though theres something else going on?

Hi there, how are you doing today? Have you been to a therapist about this? I think that might help you out because you seem to have a pretty dark look and seem pretty unhappy. Do you think you could?

Hi health andfitness guy. Imhaving a really bad day. Again! 8-| Im supposed to be on the train-not left my falt yet.Its taken me hours to get up-Ive realy itchy arms. all blotchie.Im swithereing whether to go through to the big smoke today or not, as Im scared . Im scared ill have a flippin panic attack and ill never see my gilrs again.Im scared i start to vomit and not stop and ill end up never seeing them again. I dont know why I am so scaer.i cant stop crying and this has been going on gor years now.No one gets it. It is like the ooposite of a blink.its like I cant for thinking about it, but I dont know im thinking about it.

If your doctor has prescribed citalopram, and you haven't been taking it as prescribed, this could be where your issue lies. He/She put you on this medication for a reason...you seem extremely depressed. If it is making you ill when you take it, then you should talk to your doc about a different medication. Also, remember, all anti-depressants have side effects at the beginning. You have to give your body/mind time to adjust to the drug and let it start working. If you can't get rid of this "feeling" on your own or with the help of a psychiatrist, then you should prob be on meds. Don't be embarassed about taking an anti-depressant...for a lot of people it is the only thing that can pull them out of the pool of sadness they are drowning in.

I suggest talking to your doctor about how you are feeling. Maybe you can start on something new.

Are you bipolar by chance? If you are, you need to get to the doctor right away and get back on something. Bipolar disorder is so so dangerous and from your writing it seems as though you may be experiencing the "depression" part of it. I had a very good friend commit suicide just two week ago. He was bipolar and had not been taking his medications. He was thrown into a major depressive episode, and then into a manic episode. During all this, sadly, the disease took his life. There is not enough help out there for people with bipolar, but with the proper meds, etc., bipolars can lead normal lives just like the rest of us.

Good luck and I hope you are happy soon :-) Please keep us posted.

No-I dont think im bi-polar. By the tim eI pulled myself together i was 20 minutes late for a seminar :$ Got back home after a very sweaty journey and everything just feels unstbable , nothing seems solid.

Had an amzing lecture on heroin use. I nearly burst out in tears .You saw the mum -she was really pretty and her little pretty girl on her knee. She looked happy.They both did. YOu would never have thought for one minute that she did what she did-I just wanted to cry , and I kept getting this look from the doctor -as though I had a serious looking drug problem :$ , but it was amazing what she told us. Heorin addicts sticking sponges up their you know whats it saturated in other peoples urines so their uringe sample would read something else. But there were so many funyy things that these woman did to cover up their addiction-awe dear some of it was so funy.

anyway,, so was sitting mulling it over in my head on the bus home, and so hot. Then paniced all the way home, even had to turn my ipod up so nto to hear my really annoying breathinig.

Anyway, I think im just a bit unstable at the moment. Thanks for the support babyblues and fitand healthnessguy.

I just wish you the best and hope you can pull yourself out of this hole. There are joys in life...you just have to let your eyes be open to them...like the now mom who used to be a heroin addict. Just think about it...she was probably near death and pulled herself out and she is HAPPY! You too can be happy :-)

Please keep us posted, and I still suggest that you see your doc about the citalopram and maybe getting on something else. Good luck!

Thanks babyblues-do you have the bayb blues? i had that after my first child was born. There wasne enough I could do for her-and we lived in a small kiitchenette.I concentratrated onfeeding her myself and getting better. i remeber getting really bad acute sinisitus then-I was bad with it too! I was different then i had openedmy mind to the fact he was working-I wasnt, and so on. it wsntuntilmysiser was raped that things got really bad for me.

we moved inwithhis brother and my sister inlaw-but I nevre really got to terms withthings. i didnt want my first hcild to be an onely child I wanted her to have someone else in her life-that she could tunr too-and that when we decided to have another. The thing is-it was planned but happend far too quick. I never drank when preganant -no sauce would pass my lips-but as soon as that baby shot out of me I was give me tis n that.Ill not forget my gp asking if I was depressed. i remeber the coverup line "No-Im reallyeuphoriv"i was for the first few days-but then demeted. anyway,ill not continue -it hurts-bad! I just want to find me again. I know I will. I know Ican.

You will and you can find yourself...I'm sure of it.

I actually want another baby too! My daughter will be 4 in December and my husband and I have been trying for the last 4 months to conceive, with nothing. He is actually on an antidepressant, and we think that is the reason I can't get pregnant. I, too, want my daughter to have a brother or sister...someone to call "family" besides just mom and dad. I was an only child and I know how hard it is. I always wished for a sibling, but never got one. I don't want her to go through the same thing. After 4 months, I have come to terms that maybe we just aren't meant to have another...I have stopped analyzing it and scheduling my periods, ovulation, and all that. I've decided that if its going to happen, it will...no amount of me stressing over it is going to make it happen any sooner.

So, anyway, thats my story.

How are you feeling today? By the way, where are you from? I'm just curious...

Hi babyblues-i think sometimes its easier if you dont even think about it-just enjoy it! Afterall, isnt that what life is about! trying to conceive under that kind of pressure-probably doesnt work for anyone. as soon as you think negatively, the negative sems to happen! It could be the antidepressants effecting his arousal level etc, but dont worry. I dread to ask this but why is he on anti depressants?

I totally understand about the onely child syndrome, I feared it so much , I dived in probably too fast to even see what was before my bery own eyes! (When I fell pregnant with my second child , both my parents wanted to dissown me. At the time, I wanted another baby so much ( despite economics and bad planning) At that time, the way I saw it, was there never was a good time, so just go for it.Now Im stressed and find life hard coping with 2 children , they argue , we argue, one gets the other wound up , and by the end of the evening you can be ripping your hair o out, But on the same token , there are points, when they are so so close, and i love that!

Alex my 9 year old is unwell at the moment. i think she has the flu. Shes really hto, but feels cold , then when she says shes cold sweat is dripping of her, her throat hurts, she wants to vomit all the time, and shess incredibly tired. But I know shes strong at the same time.The other one fights for the same attention that shes getttin-she wants to be ill to get the attention-mad isnt it? But I remeber that to-it makes going to school harde when everyone is at home sick!

ok, so i guess you may have read what I did this weekend , Im so ashamed, but at the same time I felt it necessary and the fact I walked 5 or 6 miles homein the pitch black with several panic attacks , proves to me I can fight this -all the way. i will. Anyway, babyblues, , just relax and enjoy your partner forget about counting. your body tends to tell you when you want to anyway. yake care, ..Im from the east coast of scotand.

This is rubbish! Ive y dad wanting us up to his in the weekend.Ive Glasgow tomorow, millions of stuff todo. Ive a friends party tomorrow evening, and Ive had my sister on the phone all night last night. Ive his dad coming for tea. hes wound me up spmething rotten. i eneded up taking child to school and going back to bed as my stomach was in so much pain-I actually thought I was going to pass out. i had to ask the school to use there lou-what a nightmare! The only good thing is I wasnt sick, and now at 2.11pm Im getting up and feeling the pressure more than ever. i just want to cry. In fact i dont know if i can be bothered doing that. Awe Ill shut up , go do something about itThen god, then I get my drink appointment , and then some anxiety management class, and i dont seem to be un gratful , but in my anxiety management class-do they have a class o legally murdering ones partner? the thing is, its so far down the line I don tactually think i culd cope alone. Ive beeen tinking about that-I really havent got a clue about managing money matters-or have I ?Has he just made me feel this way? I dont know-It one of those things, you know youve a huge decision to make-I just take life too seriously , and then not seriously enough. i really need to do some work. i spoke to my sister last night and shes made herself sick, Overworked, and theres so much else going on around our family my head is pounding. It feels pathetic! I dont want to go to the drinks programme thing any more, Its th eother side of town, and Iam anxious to getting my uni work done, i cant handle it anymore. Secrets , secrets and more secrets. if I told my mum and dad what was going on-theyd be furious. Im feeling a little insular and ashamed -it doesnt realy help