Hey guys i was just wondering if there was anybody out there with a smilar experience to mine. I feel so alone in this. Here is my story

Before i was 19 years old, i had never smoked weed. I honestly started smoking when i was 19 becauae i was going through a stressfull time in my life and i was having issues sleeping so I started smoking. I never knew how horrible things would spiral out of control after that. For the first few months i only smoked a few grams a day, but by 4-5 months i was a half oz a week and by 6-7 months i was at over a oz a week. At first it was helpfull i had a slight case of anixty before and it helped me sleep and eat.

I know some people can smoke a little and control it and im not saying weed is bad but for some reaoson i have absoultyly no control over it. I am now at the point where i sit there and smoke 24 hours a day. I cant eat with out weed. I can barley sleep without it, i usually get about 2 hours with out it  and cant fall back to sleep.

I will be honest i am in Flordia right now, i am forcing my self to detox cause when i try at home I ALWAYS go back to it no matter what. I will honstly say i went to Flordia cause i know no one down here and i cant get it, legit this is the only way ive found i will ever be able to quit.

I will be honest guys im so scared, i have been sober for the first time in an entire day in over 2 years and i legit feel like i am going to die.

I cant calm down, i cant stop moving i want to relax SO BAD but i cant. I havent eaten anything in 2 days and have no appitetie to do so. Looking at food makes me sick. I the past 2 days i have gotten 5 hours of sleep combinded. I just need someone to tell me thia will go away i cant live like this forever, i will go crazy but I will do ANYTHING to quit.

Its ruined my life, im at the point that leaving my house gives me an anxity attact because i dont know when i will be able to smoke next. Forget staying anywhere cause I need to make sure i would be able to smoke. I barley go to work, i almost never see my family. Ive pushed EVERYONE away because of this drug and i cant any more. I would rather be dead than live like that anymore. My only purpose was weed i didmt care about anyone else as long as i could get high. AAnd without  it i feel like i am crazy. 

I just want to be normal again like i was when i didnt smkoke, i want to wake up and feel like i want to go out and have friends and see my family, aand i dont want to be like this anymore.

Basically i am just posting this not for advice but just if anyone has ever quit ssmoking and is going through the same thing i am. I dont know anyone who has been addicted to weed beside me. And i feel ao utterly alone in this right now.

If anyone has ever gone through this, what did you do to quit, how long until yiu felt normal again? Im in Flordia for another 9 days wirh no weed. This is the first time in 2 1/2 years i have been completely sober for a day. And it is hell on earth and the sad thing is i am in Flordia. 

I feel impending doom consantly when im aober i discovered i have no appetite and i feel like im always going to be sick or have a heart attack. Should i go to a doctor, is there a rehab for peoplw like me. Ive never met anybody who has smoked as much as me or who felt like they were pratcitly dying when rhey were sober. 

 

Anything would be helpfull guys, I am at the end of the road here and i have never been more depressed than i am in my life currently. I just want to be normal agaon.