I NEED ADVISE I FEEL VERY DEPRESED

Hey there. I felt compelled to respond to your post since I know exactly how you are feeling. I was 22 when I was pregnant with my first child and was with a real jerk of a guy. I spent my whole pregnancy depressed and anxious due to my many fears and my feeling sorry for my situation. However, I found that through the years that followed I could do anything I wanted to do with my life and it was actually more fulfilling with my child intow. My son gave me a purpose so to speak. I was selfish before in my life, doing whatever I wanted to do, travelling, partying, whatever, which is great when you are young but really is so trivial! I went back to university and did my degree over a 6 year span while raising my son alone. My son and I did everything together and I actually prefer his company over other people...lol We would save money and go on road trips together, go camping, go for walks, campfires, fishing, the park, the movies, whatever...and to see how much he enjoyed it made my life worth while. It is hard to explain how wonderful your life can be transformed if you look at the positives in it. You will be losing your autonomy but you will be gaining an amazing gift. You will have someone who will love you unconditionally and need you to survive and be strong for them. Once you have this baby you will be overwhelmed with a mother bear type feeling, a need to protect. It feels soo good, trust me. I am pregnant with my second child now and am finally able to enjoy my pregnancy and will enjoy the baby years too. I missed out on that with my first since I felt so sorry for myself and my situation. I regret that every day since if I had known how capable I am and how wonderful my life would have turned out because of my son, I would have ignored all the saddness and envoked the joy my son was.
Basically what I am trying to say is try to enjoy this pregnancy and look forward to the baby. You will regret feeling so sad later on since you will miss out on all the joys other parents get to have. This baby will be hard at first but trust me, you will figure it out and be a great mom. You can do anything you want to do with your life, the child will not take anything away from you if you are determined to have a fulfilling life. Also, anything you cannot do with a child intow, you can do in 15 or so years. It seems long but look at how young you are and how young you will be then! You will be the envy of all your friends! LOL Children are a wonderful transformation to a home. Once you have your child, you would never want your life to go back to the way it was before. Don't get me wrong. Occationally you will wish you could be free to do single person stuff, but you would never want it so much as to leave the life you have. It will be a passing wish since once your little one hugs you and kisses you with such amazing love, being free doesn't sound so good after all.
Just try to enjoy this time. I can't stress enough how much I regret the time I wasted being sad, angry and confused. I missed out on the joy of it all.