Growing up I was always told to wait until after marriage. But that only made me want to experiment. Even though afterward I felt like a loser. But I thought that it would be okay if I was going to marry the guy.
I always write down when I get my period in my journal. I never miss a day. But I sure did miss a few periods. I haven't had a period since June 29th. I waited a week after I had my period to have sex. And no we did not use a condom.
Now I haven't had a period in a long time, I get nausious, irritable, and I cry for no reason. I have headaches and I've even thrown up and been dizzy (only on occasions.) Oh yeah and chilli really made me have heartburn followed by throwing up. My ankles are swollen and my back hurts all the time.
The reason that I didn't notice that back and ankle thing was because I'm a klutz and sometimes when it's cold I have problems with arthritis.
I'm overweight and I hadn't really noticed but my stomach is a little rounder. I thought it was that I'd just gained weight.
Oh yeah and I was playing with a stethoscope this morning and I can almost swear that I heard a heartbeat! Is it possible that I'm pregnant and that I was hearing a heartbeat or am I just paranoid and hearing things?
I have to figure this out so I can talk to my parents who I still live with. I would've gone after a test when I figured out the missed periods but I also live in a small rural town where everyone know's everybody. If I am seen with a pregnancy test then it will just spread around town and become the next scandal of the town.
Am I pregnant?