Hello, my name is Alex. I am 13 years old (almost 14) and weigh around 180 pounds, but you wouldn't be able to tell. I haven't went swimming in 2 years because I am so embarrassed about my body and hate people seeing me. I can't stand looking at myself in a mirror because all I can ever think about no matter what I do is the weight. I don't ever eat junk food, and almost never eat fast food as well as being physically active but to no avail. Never in my life have I hated myself so much but recently have been considering suicide because I can't stand how my body looks and have tried killing myself once. All I want is to lose the weight but nothing ever works. I don't know what to do anymore. I am always depressed, I feel as if I can never be happy because I always think of my body. If you have any advice to spare, I'd greatly appreciate it. Thank you.