I am a 13 year old girl, about 5 feet and 1/2 of an inch, and weight about 165-170 pounds. I absolutely hate myself, I hate myself so much. All of my friends weigh a lot less, and my weight is affecting my life in ways I do not want it to. I am in the 8th grade, and have done cheer for my school every year. All of the cheerleaders are pretty and skinny. I honestly think I am pretty, thats what everyone says. I have blonde hair and blue eyes, and I do not think I'm ugly...EXCEPT when people see me in life, like my figure, they do not like me anymore because I am fat. Boys do not like me because I am fat, and I do not fit in with everyone. My weight affects my running and it looks awful. I really want to loose weight, but I love food and do not like exercising. I feel embarrassed when talking about my weight and i can not tell my parents im trying to loose weight because I feel embarrassed. I can't go running outside because when cars go by, I feel like everyone is laughing at me. The only way I know to loose weight is to not eat and do sit ups and stuff, which works for me. I have tried it in the past, but that took me down a bad road where suicide came in. My brother is 10 years old and I can wear his clothes. My family aren't a bunch of skinny minnies, so they don't really by all the healthy foods, or go walking as a family or anything. I would love to get down to about 130 pounds. that is the absolute most I need to be. We have an 8th grade dance that i need to get a date to and look nice for. Now, I have curves, and my mom had to have a breast reduction. Boobs and butts run in my family and I have them, I just need to loose like 40-50 pounds fast! Today is December 26th, 2017 and I need to loose all of this weight FAST! Can someeeeone please help me now???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!