I happened upon this site, and have read hundreds of posts, almost all of them seeking to hear from someone who can give them hope. I know how scary life can be when you are completely dependant on opiates to carry on a normal existence. I struggled with the same horrors each and every person on this site struggles with. The lies, the secret life, and the loss of self-respect that is the natural concomitant to addiction. I know that beyond these troubles the worst fear of all is not knowing if a normal life will ever again be possible. No one on this site is worse than I was. However, I have successfully weaned myself off of opiates as of 6 months ago, and am now back to normal.
I started using pain killers (oxy or hydro, whatever was available) and eventually moved on to heroin to save money due to the ever-increasing cost of pain meds. Eventually, after rehabs and detox proved to be failures I got on methadone. After about 4 years on methadone something inside of me "clicked", and my will proved stronger than my addiction. I decided to lower my dose over time and come off. I was up to 140mgs of meth, and within 9 months I got off completely. I started going down 5mg per week, then 3, then 2, and eventually 1 (all per week). By the time I got down to 1 it was no big deal to drop it completely. Meth is great in that you can slow down or stop your lowering of dosage according to your condition. If you start to feel discomfort that week you can put off lowering the dosage until the next week. It also helps to break the mindset of going to get a fix. You become accustomed to a more stable lifestyle. It took some time getting used to at first (as I continued to get high here and there), but eventually the old habits faded away. There was discomfort some of the weeks when I got to lower doses also, but by that time I was so broken of old habits that I naturally looked at it as something to ride out rather than to immediately seek that high. I did it, so can you. ***** I have nothing to sell, and seek for nothing but to give any help that is in my power to give. Trust me, I was as bad as anyone, but I am now fully able to work and compete with others on an even level. All it takes it the will to lift yourself up from the slums. I believe this means to reject many aspects of the lifestyle that brought you into this life in the first place. Thank you for your time.
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I started using pain killers (oxy or hydro, whatever was available) and eventually moved on to heroin to save money due to the ever-increasing cost of pain meds. Eventually, after rehabs and detox proved to be failures I got on methadone. After about 4 years on methadone something inside of me "clicked", and my will proved stronger than my addiction. I decided to lower my dose over time and come off. I was up to 140mgs of meth, and within 9 months I got off completely. I started going down 5mg per week, then 3, then 2, and eventually 1 (all per week). By the time I got down to 1 it was no big deal to drop it completely. Meth is great in that you can slow down or stop your lowering of dosage according to your condition. If you start to feel discomfort that week you can put off lowering the dosage until the next week. It also helps to break the mindset of going to get a fix. You become accustomed to a more stable lifestyle. It took some time getting used to at first (as I continued to get high here and there), but eventually the old habits faded away. There was discomfort some of the weeks when I got to lower doses also, but by that time I was so broken of old habits that I naturally looked at it as something to ride out rather than to immediately seek that high. I did it, so can you. ***** I have nothing to sell, and seek for nothing but to give any help that is in my power to give. Trust me, I was as bad as anyone, but I am now fully able to work and compete with others on an even level. All it takes it the will to lift yourself up from the slums. I believe this means to reject many aspects of the lifestyle that brought you into this life in the first place. Thank you for your time.
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Congratulations :-D :-D :-D :-D
I know exactly how you feel, my daughter was a serious addict for years. Her drug of choice for the last 3 years was banging heroin. She has been clean for 1 whole year and is starting school in Sept for Nursing.
Good for you hon, keep it up.
I know exactly how you feel, my daughter was a serious addict for years. Her drug of choice for the last 3 years was banging heroin. She has been clean for 1 whole year and is starting school in Sept for Nursing.
Good for you hon, keep it up.
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