methadone over oxyneo?

I have been on oxycontine 80 mg., 3 times a day for 10 years, through a well known pain clinic. When it was taken off the market, my dr. wanted me off of it. he weaned me from 80, to 60mg. 3 times a day. the withdrawal was excruciating(chills and sweats, insomnia, nightmares, feeling of crawling insects under my skin, migraine, total intolerance to stress, agitated, terrified(my biggest fear is death, specifically going to hell)...I wanted to die, but am a Christian and wont commit suicide, every day I considered calling 911, or even CAM-H(hospital for addictions. I wanted to be an inpatient, but they refused on the grounds that I am seriously ill anyway, and the pain dr. had no idea what to put me on for chronic, severe pain. Even on the high dose oxy..my pain level were 8,9,10/10.  His only suggestion is methadone over oxyneo.  Now that i am finally out of withdrawl, life feels like a slice of cake(not really!`but so much more bearable).  What do you think?

Oxyneo is supposedly oxycontin but tamper proof, however I became short of breath from the first dose, some of my other meds stopped working, or acted strange, I.e.I take trazadone(desyrel)for sleep, and now it not only doesn't work, it makes me feel like I was run over by a truck, or the worst possible hang-over(I do not drink, do recreational drugs,or even caffeine.), migraines and other changes.

I wonder if there isn't some cover-up going on with the drug company..and i wouldn't be surprised if oxyneo is also taken off the market, but probably more because its almost impossible to get off of! Shortly after, My pain Dr. resigned, and he no-one at the pain clinic has ordered an opiate in 3 years, and that long term studies and sufficient testing were not done, and consequently many people were having trouble with the drug, but most especially if they were going through withdrawal. my withdrawal(with just a reduction of 60mg. a day) put me in a horrendous withdrawal, which I wasn't sure I would live through..and even after my pain dr. decided to put me back on the full dose, it was a further 5 weeks of withdrawal. I lost 10 lbs. just from the nausea and vomiting.

I would like to get some info, as I have no other source, my pain dr. doesn't seem remotely knowledgeable about withdrawal, he just shakes his head says I don't know, but apologized deeply from his heart he said, for the damage caused by being put on this drug.When I asked him why he did not tell me from the beginning that this drug is 21/2 times stronger than morphine he didn't/couldn't answer. my only reason for seeing him I explained, is that I thought he would keep me out of harms way, as I apparently will have to live with very high pain levels till I die. A gp suggested methadone..anyone have knowledge/an opinion on that?

Sorry for the long post, sincerely

pinkrainbow