I smoked pot which my friend light and rolled for me but it was outed, after smoking this pot I was feeling a bit high and off but then something really shucks me... I started getting cold sweats I went to the shower my heart was beating so fast my head had so many thoughts I felt light-headed, I couldn't stop thinking the weed my friend gave me had something in it like it was laced...i started thinking i was about to dead...well i thought i was dead or i was now insane walking around in a next world that i feel i am sane in but others see me as insane, this was around 6 days ago and now i am still feeling this type of way well it has gotten a lil bit better i feel good somethings when peopleare aound...i lack motivation ever since, i don't really want food, i have diarrhoea, it worst in the morning...this happened when i was like 7-8 years old i supressed it for like couple years...then one day i found the courage to face it and accessed it and felt good and was done with it...but now am 23 iahve been smoking pot but it always let me feel relaxed calm, think positive and happy with the world and motivated i guess this strain screwed me up brought me back to square one...i took so man years to train my brain in a way that i am motivated everyday not it just took one day to mess that up life is like so messed up...as i am writing this i feel like am getting better when telling people how i feel...I beg you guys please lie to me and tell me i am OK and nothing is wrong and i will be ok tell me Lies just tell me Lies. I can't even stop thinking about how i got here and what is reality and what if i go insane how will my parent look at me...how much of a failure i am if i go insane on my poor old mom who i want to make happy one day...i just can't get over going to university leaving her alone and if she will be OK or if she will be feeling the way i do when i am gone...i just can't stop thinking about if i will go to heaven when i die...or what's my purpose here and am i making the right decision...i create apps i build complex systems people think i am gifted and i am a genius is used to feel really good when i make other persons feel good...but now i just don't care am here at work have like 8 major deadline and important things to do and look what am here doing talking about how ia feel on the inside and if it will ever go away....as i write i can feel the old me coming back but its hard for it to stay it's fighting it's way back but somthing is holding it back...should i stop working don't bother to go university? i mean then my mom will think i am no Good well that's what i feel she will think i don't want to sit at home not working and stress her out..or having to face her and tell her my head isn't right i want to cry when i think of telling her that her last son isn't right in the mind because i disobeyed her and smoked pot that she told me i shouldn't do...but that's about it i think i am really screwed up...and i just can't get over being screwed up and my mom finding out and peopl start thinking i am insane and then that push me to the edge because of how th world will start seeing me and people start sorrying for me saying he was talented now look at him...i told my friend but he seems to know something i don't and i know he thinks i am tripping he told me i was tripped tf out if these are the thoughts that i have its been 6 days now.