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I know exactly how you feel/felt. I experienced the same type of mental fearness. I too smoked weed all day, everyday, 10 years ago when I graduated high school. Never had a problem, never bugged out. Then one day Salvia became this new thing selling at pipe shops and my friends and I thought it would be cool to try. It was hilarious at first. My friend smoked first and he was freaking out a minute into his trip. I was being a penis and wore a scooby doo costume to f**k with him. He wouldn’t talk nor speak for like 15 mins. Just sat on chair freaked out. It made me sceptical to try it but ofcourse I tried it. And immediately into my trip the room just turned into this really cool carnival at night time with bright lights and it was so cool. Then witches out of no where we’re chasing me and I ran out of the room. I was freaked out and I decided to go for outside for fresh air and my mind was just racing with fear. My vision just started to melt and it seemed like I was in a cartoon. And my mind thought all these crazy things like I’m dead, I’m not real. It was surreal. I felt bad messing with my friend so I apologized. I just chalked it up as a bad trip and it really didn’t affect me moving forward. I just said I’m never taking that sh*t again. But I continued to smoke weed. And about a week later I went to my boys house with a few friends for our weekly smoke weed and rent a movie from blockbuster night. This is when things took the worse turn. Never ever bugging out from weed, my mind started to shift to this whole new perspective of life. I felt like a cartoon again. In midst of bugging out I was trying to play it cool and not panic or look stupid in front of my friends. I then felt this epiphany of realization and it felt so real. I still can’t describe it. I heard this sh*t before, they called it getting the fear. And surely did I get it. It’s very hard to explain but I’ll try to. It was like I had realized that everything I knew was a lie and that I finally realized something. I didn’t hear voices or anything, but I felt a malevolent presence behind me or almost like he could read my mind. I didn’t see him, I just felt him. But he. Began to show me that I wasn’t in full control of my body and that I’m locked up in this mind. It felt like hell and he was the devil. It was so scary. I couldn’t even talk about it for months and then when I did I could only explain to people that I was approached by the Satan. But i was denying what he was trying to tell/show me and then that’s when I became aware/frightened. My body shot tingles from my toes to my head when the presence said yes. I would say no in my mind, but it would respond with a yes every time with the tingles getting stronger. I believed this sh*t for the longest time. To be honest like a little bit of me believes it to be true. I couldn’t speak or talk to anyone for so long months after. It was like I became scared to talk to people and I was shy. I was so outgoing before this and never was so much an introvert. I over analyze verything and live so scared. I even started to shake. Like I can’t even keep my arm and hands still. And once and a while I get this nervous tic. It’s 10 years later and My nervous system still shakes and I have a hard time talking to people and think way too much into what I’m about to say. I was never like that. It was like I became self aware of the true world, and was no longer unaware. I stopped smoking weed cause every time I smoked I would remember that experience and it would happen again. I drowned my sorrows taking pills. I eventually graduated to heroin. And now it’s ten years later. I’ve been clean for 2 years and the opioids helped me forget about that stuff. But being sober for a while it popped back into my head like 2 weeks ago and I realized what it was I feared. I couldnt remember exactly but now I remember and it doesn’t scare me as much. Still does though and that one experience really changed my personality for good. I over think and read into things that I never need to and I don’t do everything I should do. It’s hard to explain. I looked it up too see who else experienced this cause I knew I wasn’t the only one. Do you think what we experienced to be the 4th dimension, or the alternate universe or something along the lines with the answers to life? Part of me feels that what I experienced ties into that and maybe it was a demon who visited me. I would like to hear from people who share similar experiences as me. I want to do a study or atleast gather information or research. And to get some answers for my self interest. I would really like to hear from you guys who had similar experiences and how you coped with them cause I know I’m still scared today thinking about it and it’s 10 years later. I feared talking about it cause I think people would think I’m crazy. So I don’t think your crazy, please email any stories o experiences again, Thanks
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