terrified, that familiar feeling of dope running low...there really is never enough time to prepare yourself for what comes next. The constant fight to get more...to succeed means to function and to fail means your soon to suffer. No energy, the aches of limbs, hot wth covers on but cold with the covers off. The monster won't let you sleep and if so...only for a moment. Struggling at work, no one will understand physically unable mentally tortured with the want, the want to just be normal but that means to go back. sadly all started just to feel good that high was perfect. Soon that high meant more, it would make me feel normal and soon it was the only way to feel normal and that perfect high was gone. Lost with the money, friends, family and just normal life. The pain, just enough to drive a man insane builds, whipping the nose even takes more energy along with the dreaded walk to the bathroom again. Is this it for me? When will it stop? Mentally I'm craving and emotionally as far down as it gets. It all started with so much fun. JUst know, even though I do not know you, we share a common enemy and for that we are connected. May you find your way bAck to norMaL. whoever rEads this know yOu are capable and I love you all