Trouble getting "Aroused"

I feel like everything I post is going to sound dumb -__- but I don't have any answers and I need help. OK so last time I posted about how I made out with a girl for the first time and it was a bit of a disappointing experience, well that spawned into me obsessing about not liking Kissing and I was worried that I never would because its something that I really would like to enjoy, I've come to the conclusion that that time was filled with all of these things that just made it uncomfortable and there for un-enjoyable so I'm over it (I think).Anyway now I've got new problem, or not so much "new" just the same but worse, I cannot get aroused, I mentioned this before but its much more prominent now and I cant seem to think about anything else, It started when I was googling stuff and I came across a story about this guys first time feeling a woman's breast, anyway the story was pretty interesting but what affected me were the comment below, a woman commented that she thinks breast feel alot like your calf, so I reached and felt my calf and I experienced that same feeling of disappointment that I did when I made out with that chick, I don't understand why my brain is connecting all these things, the reason this is frustrating is because its not even like I've never felt a damn breast before! I have on multiple occasions, in fact its like the furthest I've ever gone (pretty pathetic I know lol) but yeah now I cant get turned on by the thought of feeling breast because of this, whenever I try to fantasize about getting with a girl and feeling her up I just get an anxious feel and that disappointment feeling, its really affecting me because Physically breast are the thing I'm most attracted to about women and if I cant get anything from them then I'm shot, its not longer arousing when I imagine it, it looks and seems more like I'm "studying" rather than Fondling, like I'm trying to see what exactly make breast tick (and yes I realize thats probably the most idiotic statement anyone has ever written but I'm as irrational as you can get right now and I need help) I want to be able to find breast arousing again, I just wanna get back to normal, I even tried accepting that I don't like how they feel but I don't think that's the case seeing as how I've liked the real thing just fine in the past.its to the point now that no matter how gorgeous she is or were I'm looking I cannot get turned on to save my life, not by ass, breast, anything, Help if you can or just read and think about how screwed up I am -__-