will masturbation have any effect on my muscle mass?

It has been 9 months since I have read the entries in this topic. I remember in one post, some man said that he was heterosexual all his life but he was addicted to gay porn just like myself. Then he had sex with a man and really liked it so he eventually became gay. He said that if gay porn arouses you more than straight porn, then you are gay and just ignoring it.

After reading that post, I was suicidal, I didn’t want to be gay but his story was exactly like mine. So there was two options for me, i was going to commit suicide or I would give my last shot to sexual therapy. I chose sexual therapy.

Here is what happenned after nine months; I realized that there was a reason I was watching gay porn. My manhood was never acknowledged by my father and I failed to successfully complete my oedipal period. That’s why; even though I was fully aware that I was a man, I never felt as if I was a real man. I felt incomplete and childish inside while I was completely reflecting the opposite to my surroundings. So after realizing that I was living a lie and some therapautical work of course, I changed. I don’t want to be very strict about my boundaries (and I don’t know what will happen in future) but right now, gay porn does nothing to me, zero. I can’t say it disgusts me but it is just not arousing anymore. And I also had a terrible sex life with girls 9 months ago; but now i rarely have erection problems. So my life is much better, I know who I am, I don’t feel incomplete as a man, gay porn doesn’t arouse me anymore and I have a satisfying sex life.

To conclude, I underscore that I am not homophobic and I think there is nothing wrong being homosexual. But I also doesn’t believe that all sorts of homosexuality is in born and natural. If you are gay and you feel like this is who you are then good for you, but if you have gay fantasies and it bothers you, it doesn’t mean that you have to stay that way. Once again, i don’t want to offend anyone and I am against the discrimination against gay people; but if you don’t want to be gay, you don’t have to. You just have to resolve the physchological issues with you manhood, the rest follows.

It has been 9 months since I have read the entries in this topic. I remember in one post, some man said that he was heterosexual all his life but he was addicted to gay porn just like myself. Then he had sex with a man and really liked it so he eventually became gay. He said that if gay porn arouses you more than straight porn, then you are gay and just ignoring it.

After reading that post, I was suicidal, I didn’t want to be gay but his story was exactly like mine. So there was two options for me, i was going to commit suicide or I would give my last shot to sexual therapy. I chose sexual therapy.

Here is what happenned after nine months; I realized that there was a reason I was watching gay porn. My manhood was never acknowledged by my father and I failed to successfully complete my oedipal period. That’s why; even though I was fully aware that I was a man, I never felt as if I was a real man. I felt incomplete and childish inside while I was completely reflecting the opposite to my surroundings. So after realizing that I was living a lie and some therapautical work of course, I changed. I don’t want to be very strict about my boundaries (and I don’t know what will happen in future) but right now, gay porn does nothing to me, zero. I can’t say it disgusts me but it is just not arousing anymore. And I also had a terrible sex life with girls 9 months ago; but now i rarely have erection problems. So my life is much better, I know who I am, I don’t feel incomplete as a man, gay porn doesn’t arouse me anymore and I have a satisfying sex life.

To conclude, I underscore that I am not homophobic and I think there is nothing wrong being homosexual. But I also doesn’t believe that all sorts of homosexuality is in born and natural. If you are gay and you feel like this is who you are then good for you, but if you have gay fantasies and it bothers you, it doesn’t mean that you have to stay that way. Once again, i don’t want to offend anyone and I am against the discrimination against gay people; but if you don’t want to be gay, you don’t have to. You just have to resolve the physchological issues with you manhood, the rest follows.