Okay so I am 16 right now and in a month I will be 17. I found out 5 years ago that I had OCD. When I first found out I had to take many meds including Zoloft. I took 100mg of Zoloft for 4 years. Last year I thought that I could handle not taking Zoloft and control my OCD without taking my meds (I know I am very dumb). So I just stopped on a dime and quit taking 100mg and never told my doctor or parents this whole time. I did this so i could drink and have fun with my friends, which was the worst decision if my life. So finally about 8-9 months later I had realized what I was doing and was very disappointed in myself and wanted to start taking my medicine again to help with my anxiety and OCD flare ups. So I decided To try to make it to the end of summer. About 5 days ago I smoked weed with my friend and got way way to high and had a serious panic attack. I had been freaking out for these 5 days after constantly and never felt right. So I finally told my mom I had been lying and I wanted to take my meds again. So this morning I took my first dose of it. It took 25mgs. I go to my doctors tomorrow. We tried to contact them today but they didn't answer so we will go tomorrow. So my mom and I decided for me to start today so it will help me out. After I took it I didn't really feel anything different except for more acid in my stomach at first. I was still a little paranoid and all that jazz just a little less. I knew I was on a med though cause I felt very weird in my brain. I just felt like my brain was freaking out a little bit. All in all I was more relaxed. Before taking Zoloft this morning I was afraid to take it from what I had been doing and just stopping. The day I felt like I was going back to myself except a little tired. My eyesight was also a little weird and I felt like I had pressure on the inside of my head pushing against my ears. But I had been feeling these also after stopping weed 5 days ago. I wasn't a usual pothead, just smoked very occasionally But then tonight I realized my short term memory wasn't the greatest, but yet again it was like this for the past 5 days also. I did take 2 puffs of an ecig with my bro. It was at like 10pm. It was 6mg nicotine and I only inhaled one of the puffs. I went downstairs to spend time with my family before we went to bed. But then I noticed my pupils were a little dilated. So then I started freaking out. A little. Then I felt like a burning and tingling sensation in my head. The was between my. Rain and my skull. It kind of moved around my head. I also realized my upper upper neck lost majority of it feeling and was tingly and so was the back of my head. I felt like I didn't care about Much and I defiantly couldn't remember stuff cause I was really freaking out. I felt like I was high. My head felt heavy (but this was all day) and I had pressure in my face between my eyes nose and forehead. I had the sensation of moving when I wasn't moving. Like when you're on a boat all day and when you goo to sleep or lay down you feel like you're still on a boat. I was also very shaky. I noticed the numbness in my neck when my mom rubbed it. I also have a bit of a headache, not to bad but Enough to notice it. I was breathing fast and was very scared. When I took deep breaths in it made me more lightheaded. My mom isn't worried about this but I am. I went upstairs afraid to sleep cause I am afraid to wake up. I googled these symptoms and some people were saying the exact same things that I was feeling but they had them for days. This is my first day. Then I saw someone say serotonin syndrome and I googled it and it was some of the stuff I found. It said it is very dangerous And could be fatal. I am very scared and now don't want to go to sleep because I am scared I will die but am also very tired (which didn't really kick in until tonight which is unusual for Zoloft) most of those symptoms went away except for my ears are numb and my legs are shaky from freaking out. I wanna go to a hospital but it's expensive and my mom might not take me cause she thinks it's OCD. I don't want to die but I want this to stop and I want to be scared and I want to sleep. PLEASE HELP