alright, some may laugh and some may applaud. I wouldn't call myself an addict, but i did have a minimal dependency for opiates from time to time. On and off, i abused them for about 2 years, just random stuff...anything from vics to dilaudid, but it never got BAD. I have strong will power, I had and still very much have access to many a many variety of drugs, but I know my limits and my strength so i know i will not relapse. I got my hands on methadone, 10mg tabs, and thought it was a nice way for me to really ditch the rest of the stuff. I started at 10mg, never went beyond that, i have fluctuated between 5mg and 10mg for about 5-6 months now, with no use of narcotics of any kind. Took my last dose 36 hours ago, my stomachs in knots and cramping. my hands are cold, and i have mild-moderate sweats. I have sub lingual B12, fish oil, vitamin c and a pretty hefty multivitamin. I drink lots of water. i have weed and pure ketamine hydrochloride powder that i use from time to time to help knock me out if i get restless. so i guess i am looking for open criticism, advice, diagnosis, prognosis, expectations...and more advice. Also, approximately a week from now, i am flying to London for one week; i want to be assured that i'll be okay by then; i know nothing is guaranteed and can easily go back to low dose methadone if i must but i'd prefer not to. thank you.
...I neglected to mention that I meditate regularly, and with this new challenge of ditching methadone, I will be highly reliant on the art of meditation. so for all those who are in pain and dealing with the hardships of withdrawal, meditate....meditation is not easy but practice practice practice. Learn to breathe, learn to still the mind, and it will do wonders for you. patience is key. I am really surprised that nobody on the many posts i have read recommended Meditation. I will be following this post closely until I am fully recovered so please share anything and everything in regards to recovery. thank you again.