A living nightmare

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Hope123 Posted: 04/01/08 - 18:43 Post subject: response.

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Ladies, I have read all of the above posts and my heartfelt sincerest apologies go out to you who have experienced such trauma from this. 10 years ago I underwent labiaplasty, the female performing the operation was only supposed to remove excess skin on the left, but when I awoke she had removed skin on the right as well, which is not what I asked for..(given my right side was fine, only the left was signifigantly longer).

I gave no thought to it though, as I healed perfectly and felt no pain for 10 years. I then noticed when she had stitched me up, she left a small tip of skin that was lose and bothered me when I saw and touched it. It was very sensitive.

Therefore, for years I looked for a doctor to "snip" this excess skin off. I finally came across one last June, he was full accredited and board certified. I had a consaltation, and he promised to remove the excess skin, yet he told me that I looked deformed because I had little labia on the right. Needless to say, he talked me into a procedure that would somewhat "fix" what the other doctor had done. I trusted him and his judgement, and since I had no experience of pain from the prior procedure 10 years ago, I agreed to have it done. WORST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE.

The doctor snipped my minor problem that needed fixing with ease(the only thing I should have needed), but then managed to MANGLE my complete right side of my Vagina. He cut me from clitoral hood, and connected it to my labia and created a mass of skin. I noticed right away but he said it was just very swollen. After 7 months of pure agonizing pain, burning and sensitivity,I complained. He told me that the pain would go away. 9 months later it still didn't, not to mention I was mangeld, scared, and abnormally different on my right side as opposed to my left. I began to have panic attacks, nightmares, and have been living in a state of post traumatic stress.

In February I underwent a revision surgery to fix what he had done. He honestly did the best he could. To a random person, you would not be able to tell.. However, the psychological damage is done. I am depressed, feel worthless, violated, taken advantage of, I feel like a piece of me died on that operating table that day.

It has now been 6 weeks since my revision surgery and although I am still healing, the pain is still there, sensitivity, and burninig sensations. I am literally trapped in a living hell, and I can't escape it because it is on my body. My life has changed. I used to be confident and full of life. Friends called me sunshine. Now I don't see my friends, I have a hard time leaving the house or getting out of bed. It will be a year in June since all this has taken place. I am holding tight to hope and faith that God will bring me through this stronger than I was before. He doesn't give us more than we can handle. And although I feel a piece of me has died, I look forward to the day when I can get past this and find my inner peace once again.

I would definitley advise all women out there to appreciate what they have. Looks fade, and frankly guys don't care what you look like down there, especially when they are with you for the right reasons. This is a horrific nightmare that I would not even wish on my worse enemies. Being a woman is supposed to be fresh, invigorating, and powerful. Not full of pain and misery. Keep your heads up ladies if you have experienced such horror. All we can do is pray, and pray for expertise in our doctors who can only do so much. If I could go back in time I would. But I can't. The damage is done. But I will keep hope and faith, as I hope you all do. God Bless.