Abortion pill vs suction..my experience

Abortion is a sad thing but thousands of us choose every day to do for one reason or another. In my years, I have given birth to two children and also had two abortions. The first abortion was suction and was the worst experience I've ever had, although yours could be different. They give you a shot in your bum but I was so worked up my shot didnt work. I got two and it still didnt work. This shot is supposed to make you borderline asleep so you don't feel much pain. I felt everything. They open you up with those clamps and insert a hose. They have it painted red so you don't see the blood. They suck the baby's body out then put clamps in to crush its head then proceed to suction out the remainder.the cramps are so painful as the life is literally sucked out of you. I was repeatedly yelled at for not being able to lay still. I do not recommend this method. I find the abortion pill to be as humane as possible..as humane as killing can get. You pass the baby quietly without them being ripped apart. For that procedure you just take a pill, then 24 hours later take 4 more. They will start contractions and you will pass the contents of your uterus within a few hours. I was severely nauseous with this and ended up having horrid diarrhea promptly after the baby was expelled. But after that I had felt like the "toxicity" of the pregnancy had left immediately. I suffered from severe morning sickness which ended immediately after this. It was hardly painful, I laid in the shower with the hot water running to avoid a mess.