All of the sudden I'm worried I'm a lesbian...

Hi,
I'm going insane. All day long I hear the word gay in my head. This has been going on for a year now and it's not going away and freaking me out I'm exhausted. I'm so madly in love with my fiancé and getting married in two weeks. Everyone says they see how special are love is and I glow around him. I've asked myself 4000 times if I'm gay or a lesbian and the answer is no but then sometimes I'll hear the word yes. I used to like lesbian porn and I think it always confused me but never in real life would I want to. The thought of doing that makes me grossed out. Now a lot of times I'll imagine myself doing things to a girl and it makes me sick or a irk walks by and I'll imagine doing something. The other thing is, I'm so attached to boys. I think they are so hot, unlike all the stuff I've read a billion times. It seems Kiel I have the hocd but I'm so sick of this. I just want to be gay I heard in my head just now, but that's really the last thing I want. The word gay will pop up after everything I say and I'm going crazy. I want my beautiful life back with my
Boy and have no clue what this is. I feel pathetic and don't want to have a secret or thoights in my head I can't talk about. Someone please help me.

Hi,
I'm going insane. All day long I hear the word gay in my head. This has been going on for a year now and it's not going away and freaking me out I'm exhausted. I'm so madly in love with my fiancé and getting married in two weeks. Everyone says they see how special are love is and I glow around him. I've asked myself 4000 times if I'm gay or a lesbian and the answer is no but then sometimes I'll hear the word yes. I used to like lesbian porn and I think it always confused me but never in real life would I want to. The thought of doing that makes me grossed out. Now a lot of times I'll imagine myself doing things to a girl and it makes me sick or a irk walks by and I'll imagine doing something. The other thing is, I'm so attached to boys. I think they are so hot, unlike all the stuff I've read a billion times. It seems Kiel I have the hocd but I'm so sick of this. I just want to be gay I heard in my head just now, but that's really the last thing I want. The word gay will pop up after everything I say and I'm going crazy. I want my beautiful life back with my
Boy and have no clue what this is. I feel pathetic and don't want to have a secret or thoights in my head I can't talk about. Someone please help me.

Hi I'm the same just wondering did you get feedback on this?

Hi i been 6 months obsessive thnling about it too. I have alot of anxiety and it gets to the point of wanting to hurt myself cause i dont want to be lesbian ....i need help. Im in a relationship for 3 years with my boyfriend and i love him to death i dont want to leave him. But my head and thoughts hant me. 3 years ago i was having this same issue but obsessing i was pregnant when i was not. I would beat myself because i didint want to be pregnant. It was a fear but that was gone i dont know how. I need help. I don't want to have obsessive thoughts anymore by the way im a girl and i never liked a girl or had a thought about it before this came. I was so happy 6 months ago and i felt so pretty now i dont want to leave my bed and cry. Help! Please

Hi i know this is an old thread but im going through the exact same thing right now...how did it work for you? I have a boyfriend of 4 years we're taking a break because i dont feel like i can connect with him anymore and i started having these obsessive thoughts about women exactly as you described. Ive always been straight always dreamt of sex with men and been attracted to men but now i feel dead inside and my anxiety is building and building.

I want to know how you are now. Are you still into that girl (or girls in general) ? I am having a crush on someone too, and it gets sexual sometimes, and like you said, I just want something to fantasise about.
Please tell me it was just a phase -- a very short-lived one!

I'm in the EXACT same position however I don't have a boyfriend! I haven't had one for awhile now... I'm starting to think maybe I should explore these feelings? Not sure! Ah!

I have the same thing did you get rid of it if so how?

Sounds like you may have a form of OCD... obsessive compulsive disorder... google hocd.

@Guest I am a guy and i am also on the same page. However we should not act on our thoughts. Our inner voice tells us to do alot of cruel stuff. So why should we hurt the loved ones? I hope God will save us from this horrible thoughts

You're so wrong. If someone wasn't sure about their sexuality, it doesn't mean you can justify these feelings by saying it was just their anxiety. 

I'm so happy to realize I'm not the only one that feels this way.I'm so confused. I'm in my 30's, married with kids. I've been with my husband for 10 years. We started watching porn years ago and I realized I really liked Lesbian porn. My husband started to wonder if I'm a Lesbian because our sex life it's as hot as it was. That we don't have sex as much as we did. I work full time and take care of our kids and do all the housework. It's not that I don't want to have sex with him I'm tired at the end of the day.He asks me what turns me on and what sexual things do I think about during the day. I don't think of anything because I'm so confused and don't know what turns me on anymore. He started questioning me on everything from my childhood experiences with my girlfriends to my aunt that took care of me as a kid that was gay. He labled me as lesbian and told me to go and sleep with a woman. I told him I don't know what I am and that I'm scared. Things are so hard between us now and he says that I help to figure it out. 

Hi! I am there too! Married with kids. I feel trapped, my husband has encouraged I explore my fantasies however I am afraid I might want to leave my marriage. I feel so lost, frustrated and and guilty. I decided to start seeing a therapist so I hope it will help. I can't sleep and my anxiety is through the roof. I think I have always had these thoughts but fought against them because I didn't want to be the only gay person in my family although they don't have anything against gay people.

Do you think a therapist would help or are our true feelings just manifesting themselves at the most in opportune time of our lives?