my story.....
next day , in the afternoon i did the same thing , without whisky this time , and i started feeling the same things with some dizziness when i put up , i had to calm down for a while so i can went home .
in the night ( i already had in my head the thinking of no im not doing it this night ) , i went to the home of a friend of mine, and we were chillin there ,smokin some joints , so i decided to do some ( just 3 in a space of 1 hour ) . that was the deadline . suddenly i started sweating , heart racing , losing forces , alot of dizziness , like i was totally crazy i was thinking " omg im gonna die, im having a heart attack " i went out to get some fresh air for 3m or so , and i started to feel a little better but hitting in fullforce in my head , feeling the heart, a bit dizzy , so i decided to throw up thinking that it could make me better , i was like 2 hours "bad tripping" . i went home , just drinked some water and went to sleep .
the next 3 days were all ok , smoked some joints with my bros , no problem . in the 3 day , when i came back from school , i always had a habit , smoke a joint alone at home ( can't be better ehehehe ) .. i don't know what happened , but it happened again .. my mom arrived , and i was moving all around the house, feeling the heart racing ( i was all the time thinking about that ) , with some problems to breath , problems to focus, and i just telled my mom " come with me for a walk , im not to good " , i walked for 20m or so , and it wont pass i was just like , f**k take me to the hospital , we went to the ER and the doc just told me that i was with my heart beat high ( 91 ) and that it was anxiety and prescribed me victan to calm down .. this was 1 week and a half ago , i already did a ECG and nothing , just heartbeat 85 , and i went to another doctor and he told me that it is anxiety and prescribed me propranolol ( beta-blocker ) , since that day i stopped smoking joints and tobacco also, because it makes me feel worse , and i feel just like my mind is all the time thinking in what i have, i have like feelings of panic attacks sometimes ( my hearts starts racing , my breath different, dizziness ... ) , problems to sleep ( some days ) , i dont get out like usually i did , i feel strange in some places like im going to have it again ..
i would like to hear some oppinions , because this worrys me , im just 16 and i feel that i wont have fun again like i had , my friends are all chillin and i feel awful ..
Bruno, i was a biggg time coke user for awhile and when i first started using everything was cool, but just like your story, after awhile everytime i blew a line or two i would have the most severe panic attacks. Now granted, my coke was usually mixed with alcohol, vicodin, adderall, and red bull. (Honestly my heart should of exploded) but it sounds quite similar to what you are experiemcing. In the end, after receiving the help i so desperately needed, i was diagnossed with bipolar disorder and, you guessed it, a panic disorder. Turns out the drugs i was using to self medicate one problem, was exaserbating another. This is your body sending you a message bruno. A warning sign. You said that you were afraid u wouldnt be able to use again but i think thats the point. You are 16. There is clearly some underlying issue that makes you want to dp these things to yourself. My opinion? Stay away from the drugs. And seek medical help. Your body is throwing up red flags. Don't ignore it. Trust me it's a long hard road, but def one worth taking.
And i hope i havent offended you, that wasnt my intention. I feel like your sliding quickly down a slippery slope and i wanted to offer the advice of someone who has been there, done that and lived to tell the story. sh*t is bad news bruno. Get out now.
And i hope i havent offended you, that wasnt my intention. I feel like your sliding quickly down a slippery slope and i wanted to offer the advice of someone who has been there, done that and lived to tell the story. sh*t is bad news bruno. Get out now.
i don't really use to do coke all the time , just 2 in 2 weeks or not even that .. i prefered ecstasy , like all the time we had partys in the club i bought 1g or 2g and go , but i didn't do it all the time , 1 month per month ( this in 1 year ) . and i never mixed with alcohol the ecstasy and the coke .. my passion was really the joints, i smoke atleast , only me , 4 or 5 joints per day not more than that , i think its not that much ...
what you have my ex-gf has the same , in a time she is upset in the other is really cool .. i don't feel that , im just like "depressed" , like thinking all the time about my heart if i have a truly problem , when my breath is strange i start to get worry or when my heart starts racing a little bit than the normal ( what i think it is the normal ) , my head is quite strange , i don't have the same funny life like i had , its everything different now ..
what you have my ex-gf has the same , in a time she is upset in the other is really cool .. i don't feel that , im just like "depressed" , like thinking all the time about my heart if i have a truly problem , when my breath is strange i start to get worry or when my heart starts racing a little bit than the normal ( what i think it is the normal ) , my head is quite strange , i don't have the same funny life like i had , its everything different now ..
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