Depersonalization and permanent anxiety after smoking weed!

thanks for this

Hi I have the same problem as you . I'd love to talk.

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Yes i found a cure I believe you get anxiety from depersonalization he shouldn't smoke no more and look up depersonalize on YouTube they will explain the how to control them and get ride of them

does it effect any activities you do?

Wait till you quit, i started at 13 quit now at 23, am going through hell

Salam brother how are things now?

Hi, I am a 20 year old man/boy university student and been a happy smoker/stoner, and I have been through anxiety, panic attacks and depersonalization too.

So here is my story, and at the end I will write down what helped me to recover from it.
I was a smoker for around 3 months, I always smoked from a bong, never lit a joint or blunt.
I smoked every weekend but sometimes 2x or 3x in a week, once I smoked 2 times in one day, but it went all right. Sometimes I drank alcohol but NEVER did anything except weed and alcohol and I never mixed these two things. And I would like to mention here, that I am a highly sensitive person, which means that maybe the weed affects me differently, but I never researched this kind of thing.

At the beginning my highs went all right, except the first trip, but you know what is the first trip, so I don’t count that.
After a while sometimes I started feeling something strange, some kind of stress while I was high and I read about it that “you need to slow down” or “build up a tolerance”, I didn’t believed in that.
Once I was smoking with my GF and we got high I hit the bong 2 times in 5 minutes and I started to feel that strange stress, but I decided to smoke more, and I noticed that after 5 hits I was not high, just a little bit,I was high but not very, I was nervous, but it was all right, I didn’t had a panic attack or anxiety, but I stopped smoking cause my GF was way more high.

The next day went alright, nothing special, I was completely all right, not a single sign what will come the second day.

The second I was anxious, I felt horrible like I had a fever or I was ill. And afternoon it get worse and worse, I started to get panic attacks like “I am going to die” or “I will be never the same”. It was the worst feeling of my life, you, who reading this, you know what is that feeling, or someone before me described it, so I don’t want to describe it again. And I knew that the weed was the same, because I bought from my dealer more and I smoked the rest of it without problems.

After day to day, my panic attacks get better and better, but never went away completely. Here I would like to mention that I completely stopped smoking weed. But I felt that I am not myself, hard to describe it, I felt that something was wrong, I felt that I am just inside my head, and the world around me “is just happening”. I had a fear that something was broken in my head.

And then I started to search on the web for this, like you did (that is why you are probably here, reading this) and I decided to write this down, because I know out there lots of people need help.

And after 2 weeks I get really better, if I would know what I know now I would be all right within a week, so I would like to write down how I get back to myself, maybe it will help someone out there searching for this kind of help.

For anxiety unfortunately I found nothing working for me… these things just happened with me and I was completely lost, the biggest fear was that I will stay in that state forever, it was hard not to think about those bad feelings.

But I started to work about myself when I was not anxious. I went out many times with my dog, it was very good for both of us.
I started a harder workout program, whenever I started feeling that I am anxious or I think about those bad feelings, I started to run up and down in staircase 10 times, after it I did 50 push-ups, and it helped me a lot. I started yoga, but it didn’t help for me, but once I read that it helped for someone so I mention it, maybe it will help for you.
After a while I found out that workout release serotonin, which helped me to feel more myself again.

I did research on the internet and found good things, I am not going to link them here, because on lots of site it is not allowed to share external links so I just copy things here which helped for me:

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It’s the same story over and over again. Someone smoked marijuana with a group of friends and within 24 hours, usually sooner, they begin feeling unreal, depersonalized, foggy and detached. They are convinced that the marijuana had to have been laced with something that created this uncomfortable and distressing sensation. They worry that some sort of “damage” has taken place inside their brain. When they contact the people they partied with, they are amazed to learn everyone else is feeling fine. Now they become very confused, worried and fearful.
This is not an unusual course of events. I hear this story time again and again, in almost exactly the same detail. The individual is positive they have caused damage to themselves even though they are the only one experiencing these symptoms. They often resort to “doctor shopping” and taking medications which do little to resolve the problem. Frustration enters the picture as feelings of depersonalization/derealization often intensify.
There is a simple explanation for this chain of events. Once understood, recovery is not difficult. It requires a simple yet specific process.
Resolution of Depersonalization Due to Marijuana Use.

No matter what the trigger for these physical sensations, whether prescription medications, recreational drugs, alcohol abuse, or even prolonged stress/ illness, the effects of the initial event will eventually dissipate. Unfortunately, by this time, the mind has become fatigued by the habit of constant fearful worry. This continuous habit of introspection is accompanied by the release of adrenaline throughout the body, heightening already intrusive symptoms and further tiring an already exhausted mind. More fear is induced and the cycle of fear- adrenaline- fear begins. A habit is born and if not approached correctly, one becomes entrenched in trapped feelings and fears permanent damage. Nothing could be farther from the truth but one must learn how to interrupt these sensations in order to pick up the pieces and return to normal living.
Resolution of this sensation is not difficult. It is based upon a Two-Fold Approach:
(1) Understand your Brain- Learning how to refresh the fatigued mind. Thinking more productively. Through behavioral modification one is able to tame a mind that is overactive and unproductive.

The mind quickly wraps around whatever it is dealing with, to create a sense of closure, whether the facts are true or not. Therefore, if one has recently smoked marijuana and is feeling “strange” or “odd” afterward, the mind, by process of elimination, deduces that some damage must have occurred. Every free moment is spent in self-blame and fearful worry that permanent damage has occurred when nothing could be further from the truth.

The mind quickly becomes exhausted, due to the continuous loop of worried thoughts. A tired mind is far less resilient and naturally the longer this loop continues, the foggier the mind becomes. The person may even lose their appetite, develop insomnia and find it difficult to concentrate or socialize with friends and family. They might even take time off from work, in order to recuperate, when this is completely unnecessary.

Once they understand what this is, what it is not and what to do, they are home free. It is important to note that one is not ill, nor have they ever been, which is why medication is not required. In a reactive individual, medication often may exacerbate the problem. This is merely the product of a tired mind and nothing more. The marijuana may have been the trigger but it is not the only trigger.

(2) Food Therapy– Learning to use the correct foods, one already has in their own kitchen, to work for you rather than against you. Boosting Serotonin levels in the brain naturally and maintaining balanced blood sugar levels in the body to create a far less reactive mind and body. The correct foods will accelerate recovery when used in tandem with the proper behavioral modification techniques.
This two-fold approach is all that is required to overcome feelings of depersonalization, created by marijuana use, or any other trigger. It does not require a long or drawn out process at all. It does require that one follow the specific process, leading to rapid relief and permanent recovery.
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After this I did another research what can boost serotonin in blood, because that really helped in my recovery.
B-complex
Eat meals with lots of protein.
Include fermented foods and drinks in your diet.
Get plenty of Exercise
Spend time on the sun as much as possible
Reduce Stress (I know, as a university student, that this is not easy)
Eliminate sugar or at least drastically reduce sugar (every single webpage recommended it)
Focus on Emotional Healing (I know it is not easy, but try to think positive things, be optimistic)

In the first week I have been through hell, and I promised to myself that if I will ever find the recovery for this, then I will write down how I recovered from it, to help other people. After this I will post this on as many sites as many I can so maybe I can help someone.

After two weeks I got high and everything was alright.
If you had anxiety after weed, and after that you think that you are recovered, just think about smoking weed and getting high, if you get nervous from the thinking then don't smoke it, wait until the bad feeling went away or give it a try when you will be in another mental state.

So after my bad anxiety and panic attacks I was able to smoke weed without problem, hope I can help you.

And that is all I can tell you. These things helped me and I would like to help to other people with this post.
The last sentence from me to you: I know it is very hard now, you are here because you have these problems, and I believe that I can help you and you will be all right, just believe in yourself and be optimistic like I did, it was hard but I did it, and promise me one thing: don't you dare give up on yourself.

HI there,

I just wanted to chime in to let people who may be looking to get on a cannabis-based medication that I experienced severe depersonalizations from Nabilone, which is entirely synthetic THC. I was told that although it was THC that it actually worked in the body more like the pain-reducing, relaxing effects of CBD. Umm, no. It was awful. And when I say I experienced depersonalization, I mean that in the very literal sense. After taking Nabilone a couple of days with nothing weird happening, I started to all of a sudden go into some type of mind-space where I believed I was someone else completely. At one point I believed I was a pioneer woman and needed to get to my chores of scrubbing the clothes for my family and do the hard work that came before any electricity or industrialism. On another "trip", I believed I was a pirate and was thinking about my long voyage and what I would need to take, what my plans were if I came across another boat that may cause us harm, etc. I know this sounds absolutely ludicrous but these are where my thoughts took me. I am a 40 year old mother with a progrssive degenerative disorder and in chronic pain. I can tell you that I got off of Nabilone immediately and after the trip was over, it was over. About a month or so after not taking Nabilone, I decided to try it once more, and once again experienced this severe depersonalization. I guess it could be described as being like dissociative disorder (used to be called multiple personality disorder) but I do not have this condition. Once off Nabilone I am fine. After my third bad depersonalization experience I have never touched Nabilone again, nor will I ever take in THC. I may consider a CBD med but I'd be very wary.
It can trigger permanent depersonalization, so if you are sure marijuana caused it, stay the heck away from it. While it is ok for most people, it can lead to a scary experience, and a permanent condition.

Are you Saying you had a healthy baby and you smoked weed when pregnant ? Wow thanks you are proof of everything i know about Cannabis , i knew it was not harmful if used properly , anyway there is some cannabinoids in maternal milk to help babies feed again and get the habit!

This post spoke to my heart. Smoked from 12 to 56 nonstop never really identifying it as a problem. But one day I saw it and looked it square in the face and decided to walk. All that I went through (withdrawal) is no comparison to the walk I am dealing with now. Now I am looking molestation, sexual and physical abuse, poverty, not knowing my father, racism, blackness, hatred, greed, etc. in the face and it hurts so bad without my side kick. It is a battle of the mind and the body, but for real it is the battle of life in the USA. Every day, I walk through the fire, feel the feel as it burns and tears my soul apart. But I will NEVER SMOKE AGAIN!!! I will channel my energy to help people see us as people. Thanks for this website.

This is something you all need to hear. depersonalization can control your life if you let it. It may seem like this feeling will never end but don't tell yourself that because that is how it is controlling you. You are not going insane you are perfectly normal. Your mind is trying to cope with all the anxiety that has built up after smoking. If you tell yourself you're going to be like this forever that just adds more anxiety. There is some bad news though, your life will never be the same again. However, you will get over this state of mind/feeling you are having. You will never be the same in the fact that your thinking process will more than likely be changed and you must quit smoking weed unless you want this to happen again. I had depersonalization for 3 months after a panic attack from weed and every time I smoke now I get this depersonalized state for a few weeks and it is scary as hell. Even if I take Xanax before smoking I still wake up the next day with the depersonalized feelings.
Tips on how to get over depersonalization: even though you feel you can't get out there and be social interact with people. Talk every chance you get. Play sports/exercise. Try to ignore you feeling of everything seems different/not right.

Dont do it.

This will be fairly long but please read to the end.
I'm going through this right now and I can say it is the worst feeling in my life. (I'm a 16 year old male in high school) I feel like I'm going to die and I feel like life isn't real. It all started when I had cloud 9 with my cousin. We constantly smoked weed together but I just never got high. So after we did cloud 9, I had the feeling we all have felt. My heart was beating rapidly and I was either too hot or too cold. It felt as if I left my body. My mind was racing thinking about so many things and I told my cousin I needed help. He told me to chill out and quiet down before his parents got up to see what was going on. So I sat there most of the night just feeling like life was over. The next morning we woke up and I had felt a little better but the tingling feeling was there and I felt weird like I wasn't in my body. A few days later the feeling was gone and i started to feel my old self again. But I still had questions about life and if it was real or not. Months later I smoked with my gf (ex now) and I started to get the same feeling again. This time it started to come back to me at random times even if I didn't smoke (which I had stopped). But it would go away after a few hours so I didn't think too much about it. Then a few weeks ago ( 7/5/2016 ) I smoked with my friend and my brother and sister. We smoked a little in the woods and I felt fine. Then we went back to our house to get a water bottle to make a gravity bong to smoke the rest ( for those who don't know what a gravity bong is, you fill it with water and you can burn a whole in the side to cover up for a good hit ). I kept smoking because I didn't feel anything. Then when we ran out of weed, I stood up to go inside. That's when that feeling came back and it honestly felt like I was going to die. The day went on and i woke up the next morning fine. Then 3 days ago (7/21/2016) from today, I was laying in bed and the feeling came back all of a sudden. This scared the sh*t out of me and I started freaking out. I woke up the next morning and felt like c**p. I wanted the feeling to go away so badly and I prayed to God apologizing for anything I had done wrong. I called my mom freaking out and she took me to see a counselor and therapist. She asked me a many questions about my life and what I was feeling. They then scheduled me to come once a week and I'm still waiting for that day (which is in 3 days). I can say that this has brought me down tremendously, and I feel different. It's hard for me to concentrate and I have trouble talking to people and explaining what I'm going through. The good news is that the weird feeling I get in my body is almost gone. The problem is that my thoughts are what's driving me insane. Everything looks so different to me and I have no appetite to eat anything. So I've come up with solutions that I think can help: exercise more. This can take your mind off of things and give you more power. Also you should stay away from caffeine and sugar. These things trigger your mind and can make things worse. And lastly, try to cut screen time. Watching screens all day isn't healthy for the brain. So getting outside more can help. I still want the perfect solution and I'm sure all of you do too. If anyone happens to read this and has some solutions or wants to talk about things, I'm here to help and get help. 
this was posted 7/24/2016
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Glad I found this thread. I too was a heavy user for years. I smoked 4-5 joints a day. One day me and my girlfriend went to her friends party. It seemed like a wack party so she walked in and I went to grab my grandparents mail. On my way to my grandparents, I smoked a fat joint. I felt really uneasy and sick when I was done. Note that every day for years I been smoking gas 24/7. I just kept cool and said it was the weed and after I got the mail I went back to the party. I had a couple beers there and felt even worse; high as balls. After this I sobered down a little and went to Rhode Island later in the night with my girl. Here we ate dinner, came back to my place there, and I burned again. I smoked and after I was done I was mad shaky and uneasy. I went inside and showered and stared at myself in the mirror. It looked like my veins were popping out of my chest ( of course they weren't but paranoia was setting in). I burned 3 days after that and felt the same effects but felt sick and I was tripping out. This is when I took a few days break. After the break I smoked again. This is the worst attack I had yet. I almost felt like I had to go to the hospital it was that bad. I manned up but the attack and high lasted 4 hours. Note that all of the bud was different so I don't think it was laced. Since this incident I stopped but almost every week I have an episode. I haven't burned in over two months and it keeps happening. These panic attacks suck but I try my best to overcome and hope they will go away some day.

Please don't recommend that marijuana is for everyone, I hope you're not saying that. Some people are very unhappy on the inside, and opening a door in this way can be extremely harmful especially if they have mental illness. Some people are not grounded or healthy adults like you seem to be, and in their situation marijuana can be very dangerous.