Depression & uncertainty about relationship after stopping yasmin contraceptive pill!

Going through the same thing! I've also noticed that although I feel the same way, I'm craving sex with him more! I was on microgestine for 2 months. Side effects didn't hit until the second month. I got into a really depressing state in my life. Don't feel guilty for feeling this way. Our bodies were put through a change and they have to bounce back to normal. Until then we'll have alot of wishy washy feelings. I'm still urging to get back to myself.

Hi everyone, I started by replying to some other threads but eventually opted for this one as it seemed the most recent - So, my experience has gone a bit like this: I have been on birth control for over 10years now. I started off, aged 16, on Microgynon (think it’s the common starting point) and got on absolutely fine. Like any forgetful teenager, I had the odd missed pill, but generally took them regularly, having regular breaks. I suffered with general "moodiness" but nothing of any real concern. I knew what signs to look out for, as well, as id had friends who had reacted badly to Microgynon and had gone a bit crazy (for better choice of words!). Anyway, 9years later, takes me to approx October 2013, I started to have the occasional "low point".... I am in a very happy relationship (I think - I'll get to that bit), and have been for nearly four years... But around that time I was questioning it. I was struggling to find the desire and unconditional love I once felt towards my partner. This really caused me concern when we were on the holiday of a lifetime in Thailand, something that should have brought us closer together. I tried my hardest to “brush it off” and managed successfully, with the feelings eventually going away and things returning to normal. I did not address the problem, however, until I noticed it happening more regularly (and enhanced greatly by alcohol) and did the maths and realised it was pretty much in sync with my cycles. I'd like to add, alongside these indifferent feelings towards my amazing man, I was constantly anxious, crying, picking fights – the tell-tale signs of PMS. I went to the doctor, who was pretty dismissive but suggested I came of Microgynon and tried another form of birth control. Long story short, I was originally going to get the coil fitted but after lots of consultation, ended up giving Cilest a go. I started the new pill (Cilest) around April 2014. Again, no problems at all.....until November 2014, and BAM! Now it gets a bit tricky to understand. I hadn't noticed any symptoms at all, until they hit my like a ton of bricks towards the end of November. I was anxious, tearful and generally depressed. Not interested in seeing anybody, no enthusiasm for the things I really loved, I just felt alone. However, there had been an incident happened which I thought was the cause - I cheated on my boyfriend. I say "cheated" because I don't want to be in denial or to play it down and make it seem okay - but I kissed a friend whilst on a night out. It was a short kiss, instigated by him, which I soon stopped as I knew I loved my boyfriend, but infidelity all the same, as I put myself in that position. It was a friend who I was close to (nothing had happened before) and got on well with, but looking back, I now feel horrendously guilty for putting myself in the position where it was able to happen. Anyway, I blamed the way I was feeling on the guilt following this. I tried to logically accept I'd made a mistake (everybody does?) as a result of bad judgement but I still felt terrible, like I had tarred my amazing relationship that people had previously envied me for. I thought my punishment was that I had felt as guilty and miserable as I had, but I just couldn’t shift the brain fog. That led me to the decision to tell my boyfriend.. I was devastated, and he was angry.... It was one of the hardest things I have done, I couldn’t bear to lose him, but we addressed it, and agreed to move on (of course it took time but we got there). I never once questioned that I wanted to be with him, I realised that was why I had felt so bad, because I loved him so much. I thought the feelings would then go away but they didn't. We went on holiday that week (I told him the day before - good or bad decision I don't know) - another trip of a lifetime. I should have been ecstatic - we were going to New York but I just couldn't shift the black cloud. I tried to explain to my boyfriend how I felt, but I just found it so difficult – because I just didn’t know. I didn’t want to bring up the incident again, it was hard for both of us – but most definitely him. I spent the first two days not myself, I cried every day… in bed, in the shower, every toilet stop… I woke up through the night, unable to get back to sleep due to the thoughts jittering around in my head. About everything… I imagined the most terrible situations to try and jump start some real emotion but it just wouldn’t come. I thought it was just lack of feeling towards my boyfriend, but I forced myself to address my feelings about my other loved ones, and they just weren’t there. The best way I can describe how I felt, was scared. I was terrified I would feel like this forever, and if I did – what was the point? This was the biggest over-reaction to a stupid mistake – but was there more to it? It was after two sleepless nights that I decided to try and place the blame… I figured that even if it was not the sole cause, the artificial hormones the pill pumped around my body probably weren’t helping the situation. It was then I decided to stop taking it. Whether it was psychological or not, I don’t know, but I felt better. Not instantly, but slowly… and I managed to enjoy the rest of the trip. In fact, I had a great time, and I am sure in years to come, it will be the great times I look back and remember. That said, I was still not 100%... I still lack the enthusiasm for life that I usually have, feel depressed and struggle to clear my mind… more so on some days than others. I am still feeling indifferent to my boyfriend – that one is a hard one though, I still smile at the thought of him, but I don’t look forward to time together, or to seeing him, like I used to and want to. I am suffering with what I think is withdrawal from having been taking birth control for over 10years. It can’t be solely the guilt from the incident, surely? I feel the guilt because I love him, so why would that make me un-interested? I just want to feel normal again – the bit I am struggling with the most, is that aside from the one issue, I have absolutely nothing to be depressed about. I have a wonderful job, a fantastic support network, the best family, an amazing boyfriend and a future to look forward to. I am a big believer that time is the best healer, and that things will get better… and ultimately back to normal… one day (hopefully soon). It is such a reassurance reading that I am not the only person in the world who is depressed, and that things do get better. It’s worth noting, that I also work shifts (and have been working a lot of overtime), had to work over Christmas, currently living with the in laws, and suffer generally with winter depression. Things which I am sure all contribute to the way I am feeling. Thanks for reading :-)

I just came across this site and I feel like I'm not alone.. I'm only off Yasmin for nearly a month and it's driving me crazy. I feel depressed alone and emotional all the time. It's really draining and constantly stressing me out. Its placing a strain on my marriage because of all my crazy thoughts

Hey, I'm here to tell you that you are NOT crazy whatsoever. I have been off of Yasmin for two months and have been suffering from it. I doubt my feelings for my amazing boyfriend, I just lay in bed and I can't feel any excitement to anything I used to. All this started because of Yasmin. From what I have been told, every month gets better and better. It is horrible what we are going through and the anxiety is crippling. But believe that this is the pill! We're all here in support. Reading these blogs is what keeps me sane!

I have been off Falmina since October 2nd which makes it almost 8 months. I have also been doubting my relationship with my boyfriend. It is really rough today and I almost broke up with him today because of my anxiety and depression. There have been some happy moments but its been numbness for most of the 8 months.

Hi did her feelings come back I've been with my wife 21yrs and she started yasmin 1 yr ago and it's gone down hill now she says she doesn't feel the same and feels like she's not inlove she's adamant it's not these so won't look at anything
Her moods are horrible shouts at the kids and it's just not her

So sorry for how you feel..I have been feeling the same way for the past month and I know how hurtful it is. There are days when I feel good and others where I sit and contemplate why I feel odd. Stay strong hang in your guy is good.

Hi did your feelings come back

Hi did your feelings return by wifes feeling the same thanks

Hi did your girlfriends feeling come back thanks

Hi, I am a girlfriend who is slowly recovering from this. These horrible feelings lead me to develop relationship anxiety. Had fears of falling out of love, living together eventually and things not working out, bf was not manly enough, going out because I'd see attractive guys which meant I didn't love my boyfriend, the whole nine yards, fear of missing out or that I'm too young, fear that I was settling, and tore my boyfriend apart. He was too skinny, ugly, not fun. All negatives stuck out. It took me a while to realize that these feelings were irrational, and that no person thinking in the correct state of mind would have this many thoughts so randomly when falling out of love.

I still feel love, but feel different towards my bf. Like the love is more muted now. But, I definitely am better than I was a month ago.

I've been with my wife 21yrs she started yasmin 9 months ago 6 months ago she said she didn't feel the same it turned her into an irrational person it's been like living with another person she's been off it 3 weeks and her whole persanality has changed to the nice person I new but she still feels the same and says she don't think it's the pill she didn't no her own mind when she was on it but she seems of sound mind now she had 15 of the side affects but she seems like she's got no side effects now at all I'm lost

I'm sorry that you have to go through this, I know how hard it is. 3 weeks is definitely not long though. It could take months, even a year, for the pill and it's effects to be completely gone. I have been off the pill for almost 5 months, but I have experienced the relationship stuff for about 4 or so. I wish I could give you a rule of thumb for how long this will last, but something that helps me is "thoughts that change are not real". For example, you mention your wife was irritable and now she does not seem this way towards you or the kids. Also, for me, I had strong anxious feelings to end my relationship. However, I'd also have strong feelings of love whenever I layed on my boyfriend and hugged him tight. I have great days with him now, but, smething still feels wrong and I don't know why. We have a great bond and he is my best friend. I have waited it out, and will continue to do so. I definitely think you should do. I felt like I was going insane in the beginning, but things got better. Hang in.

Thanks for the reply what it is she's just dismissed it as this she said she wants to wake up and it to come back she's trying to pick everything to pieces and try and justify why she's feeling like this then she says I don't no why I feel like this she's being very cold with me now proberly my fault getting a bit mad trying to tell her when it's not her fault realy hard for me to try and understand we have 3 young kids and she was terrible when she was on that poision but she's back to normal with them loving and caring like she used to be

Yes, I wake up every day wondering when I will feel normal. When you say pick apart, do you mean she picks apart you and the relationship? I'm sure she is frustrated at the situation and wonders why this happened. I get frustrated and hopeless too.