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Hi! Thanks for sharing your story. All of your thoughts and feelings are nearly identical to mine. I got off of the pill like 5 months ago, and about a little over a month after, I started questioning if I found him attractive. A few weeks later, I fell into that depression you are referring to and was literally in tears to my mother saying that I fell out of love with my boyfriend and that maybe breaking up was the right thing to do. I have been plagued by these thoughts ever since, so it has been about 4 months for me. However, I have gotten a lot better. Much better and much more functional. I still feel like a connection has been lost. It really does bother me and I don't think I will ever be the same again, but I have come to terms with that and am letting it be a part of me, not define me. During this time,since this obviously is a very slow healing process, what has helped me is knowing that loving someone is simply a choice, and you fall out of love only if you want to. No matter what stupid flaws my brain tries to focus on, I realize that my boyfriend is a great guy, and those flaws are absolutely trivial when I realize how awesome he is as a person and overall partner in general. I also realize that if I ever lost him, I'd be an absolute wreck and know I would never find anyone even close to him, and I would regret my decision of losing him down the road. Boyfriend knows much of these feelings too, my loss of attraction, doubting of relationship, doubts if I love him e.t.c. and has never left my side and knows that I love him. He would do anything for me, and I'd do the same for him. Sometimes I feel like I can't appreciate those awesome things about him, like I once did, and that drives me nuts because many people would kill for their guy to be like that. It almost feels like the physical features outweigh all of those awesome things which is completely bizarre and has never been me before. Hoping for continued better days, but breaking up is 100% not an option for me. Wishing the best to you girl.
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